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Hi, I just came back from Semarak Temasek. Firstly, I got so dumb and confident that it was at Tampines JC. Like HELLO NAJ! TEMASEK? TEMASEK DIDNT GIVE YOU A CLUE???? But I got lucky that they haven't start the competition yet. And I still get to watch PJC perform!!!! Awww, my juniors all so pretty :D And the performances were amazing! Seriously! I mean like the top 3 really deserved top 3! And then going back home, Amirul told me about how the dancers are now learning serampang 12 and my heart got shot again. HAHAH! I think if I'm a flower, all my petals would have dropped every time I watch performances by people I have performed with. Sorry this will be about me again but yeah, I JUST MISS BEING ON STAGE!!! T.T I miss dancing for people and for myself, I miss acting and playing a different character from myself and I've never really sang on stage except for primary school national day performance when I performed on stage with my moves and voice.

It's 1.09 am. So I can very well say that I've spent the whole day at home in front of the computer, worrying about my life today. Updates: Academic wise, I'll just have to wait. I already applied for retake in case I don't get posted to Uni, then if I don't I shall appeal first and I still think it won't be successful, I shall really consider to pay the price to retake or just let people pay me by getting a job. Conclusion: I just have to wait. Then I'm really going to take PDL later so I can start on my driving lesson to get my license! Final Theory is on 27th May. By then after I pass it(yes, must pass it on first attempt please Naj!) I hope I could get a test date for practical fast! Seems like if I can pass in May, my earliest TP date will be in August if I'm lucky but if not, around mid-Sept! Then I hope I can finally drive for real so my dad don't have to climb the stairs anymore and I can bring the car down for him! Hmm now

There are so many questions in my head right now, I think I should ask.fm myself ha ha ha. Being in this adolescent life sucks so bad because I really don't know what I want or what I really need to do. I have a strong feeling that I won't get a place in uni because if I did, I would actually have gotten some sort of interview and the fact that one week has already passed and I'm still not shortlisted, it's the end. So in my mind, I'm wondering if I should retake A's or should I just go for SIM. The clock is ticking and I really need to do things fast. I could retake but the chance of me getting better or at least the same result is slim. It was by luck that I actually passed my Chemistry and GP so what if I don't this time? I don't want to waste money or time in doing something that will get me back to where I am. But then again, I could just apply and if things change, just don't pay and my application is considered null. Somehow, I k

“ A man who dares to waste one hour of life has not discovered the value of life. ” ~ Charles Darwin So just an hour ago, I was staring at twitter. Thinking what I should do, if there was anything I should be doing but just procrastinating. And apparently, there's really nothing to do. I just have to wait. Wait for somebody to start a conversation. Wait for any important emails from anywhere. Wait for letters that would change my life. Waiting is really somehow depressing. Because there's nothing else you can do other than wait. And as the above quote said, I don't know what is the value of life yet. I've just been doing a lot of thinking and nothing to help myself. Like what should I do this Saturday? I already said I'm going back to help. And then my brother suddenly asked me to help out in his work assuming I'm free. And I'm not free. But I won't be earning anything, just giving my time away. So is life all about money? I mean,