so weird! so quiet!!! usually the TV would be on around this time. hmm~ changed skin again. not mine lahh! blogskin! ohgosh im talking to myself. you can see how bored i am! anyways. today was a totally boring day. did nothing except to surf internet and watch TV and sleep and watch TV and surf internet. boring. boring. boring! should have done my homework~ havent even started on english. just a bit of maths. bleearrgghhs. hope to go out with snjr this sat. then next week going out with anisah. thinking of inviting 1C-ians gals. i told her NO BOYS! lol. thinking of changing the blog url. but i dont know yet. www.blearghs.blogspot.com? www.sotongnemo.blogspot.com? www. i have no more ideas. really want to change the name and then stick with it. so it must be something related to me. but then again. i dont know if i should change it. lalala~ think i should blog off now. before mak wakes up and shout at me and start to threaten me-- buhbye~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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at last. i finished the novel titled Island Girl. really soothes me. whatever that means. just want to use that word. hahas. anyway, it's about a 13-year-old girl name Meggie who spent her summer making a decision to stay with her army-freak father in and island together with her grammy and papa or choose to live with her pregnant mum and her stepdad, gary. during the summer, she mets a girl name Tia who's family gonna run the farm if her dad got promoted. they didnt have a wonderful relationship at first though. but after they did a stand, it was all going well. the stand-firstly it was just strawberry stand. then it became a strawberry smoothie stand. and as different fruit bears. there goes, different smoothies. Meg sacrificed her training team with Charlie and Natalie to try the stand. long story huh? at last. she choosed to live with her mum, gary and the newborn baby, elliot. and promised to come back every summer. the end. quite touching and that's a book that i can
ytd went to sembawang? fire station. sorry for my STML. so fun. had to cover up a small room before the gas enter. so panicky lahh. especially my dear sec two-s. lol. and we get to smell the smoke which i didnt smell because i breathed through my mouth all the time in the room. and then played with the fire extinguisher. i held it wrongly and ms ratna said "below SAYANG". i was like eerrr. ate macs with nurul. so hungry lahh. went around lot one alone. i dont care walking alone. went home rested for awhile then went to abg nawi's house at jurong west. so NICE!!! the best place to camwhore. but too bad i didnt bring my cam. and i imagined staying there. looking at the people playing basketball. that would so rock! my brother even created a gym room! gotta be so cool staying there. must buy a basketball. hehes. as if! mum and dad went home first. i waited for aniyah to go to sleep. which she eventually did at 10. went home with abg iwan. so scary sey! imagine riding motor
errghsss! i HATE those people who loyar buruk ! why oh why is everything going wrong for me these days? i think i need to talk with somebody who is willing to listen but who? sher called me. i want to go out with her today! but mom disallowed me to. you know i just feel like all i can do is to cry. im being some kind of EMO! but i dont want to. i hate EMOS seriously. what am i supposed to do? just show a smile on my face eventhough i dont feel that way? im pissed with everything. just when im having fun. some other things would just pop up and rotten my life. but when i think of it again. what is making me sad and crazily miserable? what are my problems? and then i dont know. i know it's way more than my results. way more than not interacting too much with my besties. but what is it? I DONT KNOW! arghs! what is wrong with me? i just want to go back time. but i love being in KSS. i love my bestfriends here. i love my class. all of them rocks to the extreme. i love msCHEN and msTANG.
feeling much better today and know why? because my BABYsayang , ANIYAH came! wheets. but she kept crying. and crying and crying. but she was CUTE! want to see her pics?? even if you say NO, im gonna show it! i love this pic of her!!! ooooo. having dreams of fighting ninja- surrender and look away~ and those white things on her cheek is calemine lotion because she's SICK "_" urgghhss. sher changed her number and didnt tell me!
AARRRGGGGHHHHH totally pissed, stressed and depressed! 24th MAY 07 i hate it lots!!!! not enough with me thinking about my own personal problems, i have had a thousand problems after. SUCKS sey! sorry friends for my mood today. i need to attend PTM! !!!!!! i miss my FRIENDS! !!!!! CONFUSIONS all over me! !!!!! PRESSURE! !!!!! i HATE IT TRAINING!!!! fyi: i cried infront of msCHEN when i saw my report book! i just couldnt take it anymore. i just want to cry now! i want to call sher. but im not sure. AAEARRRGGGHHHG and that freaking computer was giving me a thousand problems! okay let's relax and start from yesterday. when i knew what my rank was i just felt helpless. only fun thing about yesterday was the air rifle. BULLS EYE! but it was heavy. we all needed massage! at least the air rifle help me forget about my rank. but we went to CDANS. my most memorable place ever! i wish my besties were with me. when i walked home alone. passed SAPS. i was controling my tears. it just reminded
shirin just called~ that's the problem with knowing people of the same pronounciation of names. when she said she was shirin, i thought it was sher. so i wondered why sher's voice was different and sher dont usually say 'peace upon you' in the Islamic way. lol. anyways... today was okay. saw hii on the way to school, reading probably the same book he read yesterday. had service-learning programme. talked about happy-toilet. and go RANI! the best MACARONI dance champion! shake it! atq called her washing machine. lol. and 1C is the best! then recess. back to class. check our marks again. wanyi doodled on her table and the rain was so cooling! love it! back to hall. got our result for the DISC. im an S! and we have to get into groups of 8. must be a mixture of all races and gender in the class. so it was amirah, hafizah, shirin, fairuz, shi ying, guan wei and ying fu. most of us were S-es. shirin and yf were C-es. none of D and I. then did a reflection and went home. suppo
21.05.07_MONDAY took mrt cause i was late! hmpf. took with ms ho? i think that's her name. had a briefing about cultural fiesta. and 1C, 1D and 1E were the 'chosen' class for the folkdance competition. but 1C have to do israel dance~! we all wanted to do russian dance! where anisah have to turn in the middle~ then had to watch guitar competition. he sang, for me. no lahh! PERASAN LAHH AKU! about his singing, dont want to comment~. but by then we had to go for phototaking. i hope my face dont look bad in the phototaking! stood beside basyirah and fairuz. in the middle. then went back to the hall where 'SUN' was performing. okay lahh. think he was nervous because w&pPREZ was there. that was all the fun. then we found out our marks and all. considered we had free periods. the last period, discussed about the costumes with basy, rani, fairuz and wanyi. basyirah jadi GILA!! hahas. then took neoprints with amirah. saw shiying and halima. went home with amirah. she too
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three days unposted=(such words?). so what happened? For Your Information... 20.05.07_SUNDAY i was alone for madrasah! sahra didnt come~! so bored lahh. hmpppfff! i was ready to head back home because ANIYAH came! walked home because i want to let out what i was thinking the whole time. i dont even know what im thinking of! is it about family? friends? or him? okay not him! CONFIRMED! lol. so i went home and aniyah!! auww she's so cute! but she kept crying! that's why i cant play computer. must make her sleep. want to see her pics? sleeping cutie~ SURRENDER!~ nightmares! cik jihah kacau jer!~ why was she crying?! argh! ooh! somebody's taking my photo~ at last she's asleep after 1 1/2 hours! and then she woke up and slept again. shh! we fed her honey and lemon cream. she love it! and i slept before she went home. too tired~ monday post coming up!
i want to do a memory post! ST ANTHONY'S PRIMARY SCHOOL P1(1-8) hmm.. form teacher was MRS MARY KOH ! and ml teacher was CIKGU JURIAH ! my two favourite teachers! quiet one. top in ml[EHEM]. and i pee-ed in the school hall! hahas. too timid to ask for permission to go to toilet. shy what! but i always wonder, why didnt shufen smelled anything. ok, GROSS! paiseh! EEEUUUWWW! and the first day of school, my buddy paid for my food. so kind of him! but you know what? i cant remember his face! P2(2-8) form teacher was mrs chelvan. and i cried one day because my music teacher didnt have a heart! she insulted me infront of the class and thought she was that angel and pretty one. she was the ugliest one and her styles are OLD! ketinggalan zaman! i hate those two teacher and i still love Cikgu Juriah! and afida and azwan were flirting with each other. and once, azwan went right infront of sher's face to talk to her and they almost kissed each other! and diyanah was pulling everybody not
slept at 8pm and woke up at 3 plus. and mak and kakak and abang too are awake. ayah is asleep because of the aircon. LOL. anyways just now i just felt like talking to somebody and i dont know the cause of it. but after typing on a keyboard without a screen, i finally knew why i wanted to talk to somebody. but i dont feel like talking to anybody. huhs? i wanted to talk to somebody but dont feel like talking? CRRAAPP. i wanted to talk to somebody but i dont want to let it out. i want to keep it to myself. i dont want to irritate others again. listened to malay songs while i decided to doodle names on the CEILING ! CRAP lahh najihah! on a piece of COLOURED paper. then i fell asleep. hahas. my father wanted to off the radio but i woke up again but then when he went out of the room, i fell asleep again. CRRAAZZYY najihah want to waste ayah's money! GGRRRR! then i woke up while everybody was awake. and ayah was looking at the phone of aniyah's pics saying "tembam nyer!" [tr
i was kind of late and early at the same time for KSJ. dont understand? nevermind. had our bandaging lesson then got back our uniform then lesson till 12. i love the uniform! hahas. crazy-crazy-me. after first-aid lesson, BREAKTIME! hahas. shirin and ruiting were like "can we go out? i dont think so lehh! let's go back!". aiyoh! sir let us go break for 1h just to stay in school canteen where nothing was open huh? but they still went with nurul and me. all bought McChicken. some add small coke, small fries and hot fudge. went back to school. saw a dead lizard/chameleon which was DISGUSTING! we came back to school early. too early. decided to play heart attack. i won but didnt get to slap anybody's hand. and there was a free performance. by our SEC TWOS! but it was so unprepared. no wonder it was FREE. lol. then we went to spin room for dialogue session. YUENRONG love CHOONKIET *muack**muack**muack* YUENRONG love CHOONKIET *hug**hug**hug*. i was so blur lahh. anyways y
late-ness!! like totally late. 188 where were you??!! had to take 947 and mrt[saw riduwan! :s] to CCK. thought of alighting at YT. but then all kranjians alight at CCK. hahas. then walked quickly like as if im running. never have i been late, as late as that. then need to put on tie some more. haaizz. free period. supposed to have paper check or P.E. but heyy, who cares? FREE PERIOD people! hahas. dread-ness when ms chen came into the class. take a look at all our scores. i dont want to drop to NA!! AARRRGGHHH. how to pass english? teach me how! english, geog and anything else? forgot lahh. anyways i FAILED those subjects! like what the _(InsertAnyWord[s]YouWantHere)__. and then we had our folkdance. DURING OUR RECESS. say that sentence before the one before this sentence again! but we still had our recess after that. for like (i dont know how many minutes?) then it was english! what's with the exclamation mark? because i LOVE it! yeah! wanyi, atq and me were having "PRESIDE
i hate to hate you i would love to love you i want you to want me i need you to need me understand all of these? hahas. too bored. bored, bored, BORED! want to gossip?? hahas. no lahh. want to gossip about who sey? haizz. so bad didnt see him today. that's the problem with me. when i like somebody, i want to see that person every single day and i think my friends are sick of it! okay, so how? should i try that "no more ____" method? hahas. NO MORE RENT! lol. how to stop my addiction to him??? tell me!! argh. boring boring bored~ i think i want to sleep now then wake up and draw KITE! tmr presentation? is it? i dont know. well whatever. buhbyes~!
afida took the 188 bus. kind of awkward when you have two friends that dont know each other. ran 2 small rounds for taf. ran with regine. hahas. ran and then skipped and then walked. so fun lahh. talk and talk some more. then we got that science enrichment pet-rocket. okay lahh. paired up with regine. stripped our "boyfriend" bottles. and chopped its head and body. and then recess. just went around. aiyoh! got poked by that rocket by basyirah, wanyi and somebody i forgot. regine kept singing the song from BAKA series. and she was too cazy for her "boyfriend". i pumped and regine press the shutter? a lot was wet. i was a little. wanyi wasnt even wet. hahas. then had to go for IT training. had to do kind of "summary". and then character education had to find out our personality. then found out our geog results and HML. ARRGGH! failed geography! at least i passed HML. 131/200. which means it's a B3. at least this one improve from B4. others.. haizz. im so
heyy! waah today is such a happy day and moody day at the same time. no taf. urm two free period , oh no one free period. cikgu was busy. kept laughing and laughing lahh me. and i so don't understand what halima kept talking about. hahas. she talked for so long and then i cut in with "i dont undertand you!". kesian halima. and then did a survey thingy. on TLLM. i just pressed anyhow but i know what i rate lahh. what am i talking? nevermind. recess no seats because sec twos were having pet-rocket science. so we all stand there. talk and talk. mabel anyhow call me pervert lahh. GILA!! bio watched titanic. okay at least i didnt cry. but i cried for english! 24/50!!!! just one more mark to pass. and im dead for english. please dont tell me i would fail my english like before again!! enough of that moody part. at least i was cheered up because i got 77/100 for maths. but i expected higher. they say the higher you hope, the higher you will get. it doesnt work for me. the highe
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went out at 3 to sher's house. at least we talked quite a lot because i thought of what to talk to her about. but actually i just talk what came into my mind. hahas. sher got this dream when she was half awake. she laughed but she was sleeping. mcm mengingau lahh. went to library only because i knew i was going to be late to meet my mum. and sher, i have told myself i dont want to repeat the same mistake. because of the explaination. i have cried so much. just because my heart and mind have agreed to tell. i cant stop crying and just wished i have never told S. and i dont want to tell HIM. no no no! i wont! i dont even know him and i have NEVER spoken to him. we dont know each other. so nope! i dont want to start my sec one crying again. i have done that during P6. when PSLE was just starting. he hates me for that. and ignore me so sudden. making me hate myself for telling him. i want to start a new year in a new school with new people. although i wont ever forget those crazy and s
ytd when out at night. so tiring lahh. my eyes didnt feel like opening up for me. anyways, we went to alexandra hospital to visit nenek. hahas. she kept talking about the same thing over and over again. then went home. PAISEH! i thought it was the first floor but it was the second floor. almost wanted to get out of the lift but mom said(translated) where are you going? what's wrong with you! then i was like eh. omg PAISEH! at least nobody except for my mum was there. and a patient wanted to go down the lift. so it was okay. hahas. waited for the bus for so long. haizz. then went to woodlands' pasar malam . then went to wak jah's house. naufal so naughty!!! kept pinching me and putting songkok on my head! beware if you have naufal for your nephew or cousin. but he's my nephew. naughtiest one of all. hahas. but he's P1. so he's a little bit matured. other than his little brothers. one is so noisy in the house but quiet outside and the other just follow what his br
today huh? Mother's Day. okay so my mum have gone to JB with ayah. and i forgot to wish her. because i she was shouting at everybody sleeping in the house and i was rushing for madrasah. so yeah. kept SMSing sher in madrasah. and sahra really have forgotten to bring her CRAZY medical pills. so yeah she was TOTALLY crazy! lesbian with people here and there. hahas. and then went out with sher just for awhile. walk here and there. because she's going to study with her YI friends. didnt talk much. hmm. just kept quiet until something comes up into my mind. you see, it's just so hard that we are not in the same school anymore. we dont have much to talk about because we have other new friends. and even if we want to gossip, we CAN'T. because those people we want to gossip about is just in the past. all we can do is talk about our past. haizz. if only we all went to bbss or somewhere we can all meet again. okay so during P6, we all have decided, Bukit Batok Sec for all of us.
today is simply BORING! hate saturdays. sjab or no sjab! i hate SATURDAYS! well. all i can do is watch television or play computer. dont have the mood to study because i need songs! mp3 broken which is like so sad! want to go out. argh! but my laziness controlled over me. watched two and a half men and malcolm in the middle. i'm so ready to change my skin. friendster and blogger. cant seem to get the right background pic. =(
IT's FINALLY OVER!!! today! TLLM! and it's done! finish! habis! wheets! although i really feel like presenting our TLLM again. hahas. it was so fun! anyways i was late. not for the thing. to meet my friends. and i saw him at the entrance. anyways panicked because i still can't find my bio file. and so we rehearse. then we discussed of some questions. into the room we went. ouh so scary. thumbdrive so slow. but it went pretty well, uh, very well! i think the judges enjoyed our role-play. and one of the question given was actually the one we have just discussed previously. and the judges was almost into keeping our board. but one of them said that it was too simple. too simple? like how difficult they want it to be? we didnt want to throw so shirin decided to keep it. had a hard time on who to help shirin. at last i went and help shirin till her busstop while jayne and hafizah went to order pizzahut. yeah! we were celebrating at pizzahut. delicious! first time to eat with fri
stomach cramps early in the morning. first day and i dont even expect it. so wwaited for jayne and shirin. and my stomach was seriously killing me. trying to scare shirin of all the pains. and yeah did LOTS of touch-ups. and im so scared!! what if something goes wrong tomorrow? not even sure if i need to wear anything different. planning to celebrate with amirah's group and mine after that with pizza hut. then take neoprints maybe? should be. im like super scared!! of the questions and scared i can't answer those questions. coming at nine tomorrow. really need to know the board well. and hope to see him so i can get more energy at least. hahas. so anyways really had this weird dream. about Someone being a friend from saps. cos it will be really weird. REALLY. and yesterday counted my bank. counted wrongly at first so i thought it was 123.45. seriously, im not joking. but it was 83.45. argh! and i went through my tresure box. read back all those sweet letters from my friends. i
so weird!! had this talk with my mum for preparations for my bro's wedding. i have a lot to say in this. yeah! i get all excited and wants to control it. so bad luhh me! anyways got this person which irritates me. Lesbianity is nothing okay. there's no lesbianity. you see two girls together hugging is not lesbianity. it's better called sister love or BESTFRIEND! get it? no lesbian! unless two women marries. that's lesbian! none of the girls in 1C is a lesbian. 1C girls just love each other too much and so become extreme bestfriends. anyways what do you care if there are lesbians? jealous?
im really scared now. scared of getting scoldings by my mum. maths 2 was really hard. i was really OMG! OMG! OMG! all the way. seriously cant understand question 2. until jayne told me how it was done. but what's the use of it now? it's over and done with! at least i didnt get any scoldings from ms tock. that's better. waited for ms vanitha for so long for my file. and guess what? NO FILE! maybe i didnt hand in? dont know. not sure. but it was a superbly long waiting time. when to lot one. really glad regine was there to keep me company. and the laser-flair(?) showed just follow law. a good killing time. it was really entertaining! and basy, what were you trying to do? kacau jer. org ngah enjoy lahh! hahas. you want me to get heart attack? just like that appear infront of me sey. ter-shock tau. saw some anthonians, wen yang and timothy too. then laze around. saw basy, rani, farah and fahim decorationg their neoprints. jealous sey tak ajak! hahs. tak tau malu jer!! went to
so tired!! madrasah, got locked out because sis was sleeping. had to go up and down to call daddy. glad i gave him the phone. if not i won't know who to call! and so at last we came. everybody was like why were you so late and stuff. supposed to do stuff. become kendarat. but by that time, there weren't many people and there were many kendarats. so didnt do anything. and QAIS came!!! so happy. stayed up and watched TV. it's not like everyday you can enjoy watching SCV! and then mom asked to go home. EURGH!! i was just about to enjoy everything! and kak aisah went to the guy's house! so sad! cannot see her liao! and AKMAL's hand injured!!! so serious need to go hospital! KESIAN!! my anak sedara~ and so i think im gonna sleep. tmr have to do journal and go hafizah's house. and i got WINNIE THE POOH!!!! very belated bday present from kak aisah. so CUTE! and CONNECTIONN!!! getting me GILER~!
AT LAST I GOT THROUGH WITH THE CONNECTION! today huh? morning arranged my files in the computer when to WAK KAMIS' hse. lost for a moment. dumbby NAS said the church. or was it dumbby me? ouch my legs hurt from walking hundred blocks down! ooooh blisters! 4 of them! WOW! OUCH!! anyways i went there because kak aisah was getting MARRIED! ooooh pretty pretty princess! MARYAM jangan gatal eh! Dah jadi suami org tau! =) the guy kept acting EMO! and so it was kind of boring! but it was fun watching the couple, not the wedding couple, the old-going to wed-couple camwhoring! and AKMAL was so CUTE!! i love the part where people get to throw the things at the wedding couple. tempur sirih or wadeva. hahas. so jokey! went down and up and down again! got a ride home by abg faisal's lorry! YAYness. something's wrong with the internet connection!!! i kept trying to refresh and refresh for a thousand or a million till it loads but not properly. GETTING CRAZY URGHS!!
talk about yeasterday okays? so me and sher were talking about abdul hakim and then you know what? we really saw him! dont seem to change much. just a taller. then i asked sher to go and visit qais with me. but she was dizzy. hmpf :P so i went to acu's house then went to qais. and we brought her home! auww so cute. but she was hungry and so she kept crying for milk. thankgod she dont need breastfeeding. today huh? RAIN!! when i reached class, there was only 1/3 or lesser. malay, watched some old videos on 'adat and adab'. english=literature. ms nurjannah is really weird and we want CHOCOLATES! because we are 1Chocolatey class! a chocolate a day, will keep us awake! recess. got teased! so bad lahh you people, but i love you people too! canteen duty, suckishly sucks! biology did our own stuff. well my maths lahh. maths doing on the SimCal graph. geography was double free period. ms chen was absent. was i crazy? i thought i was being normally me! basy and rani thought i was cr