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2010 will be over in (24-5.48) hours time. I mean, it's not over till it's countdown right? So here's what I really don't understand. Why are people claiming 30th Dec the last day of 2010? Why are people already saying hello to 1st Jan on 31st Dec? Did I just miss the countdown or my clock is not right? WE ARE STILL IN 2010 PEOPLE! DON'T GET TOO EXCITED! Lol. So, as usual, people comes up with new year resolutions before new year. Reflections before new year. Everything, at the very last minute. Hahah. Okay, I shall do that too :P FIRSTLY, As for this year, I started off with this 16 things I wanted to achieve or have by 2010. Get through internal FAC. Of course, we all got through that phase! Get into FAC with NC1. Well, we still got our golds and I'm thankful to my babies for that! Distiction for Prelims. Prelims was the worst ever thing that happened, hopefully, O's WON'T BE THE SAME! An awesome blogskin. Win best CPR award. Got the best Home Nu

HOLLA! Yes, I've been back since Tuesday morning. So, let's play recap shall we?! 25 December The original plan was to leave the house at 11am. Macam betul je planning...~ Lol. We went out at 6pm instead! Well, the ride was fast! We stopped at Pagoh around 9pm for dinner. Reached kampong at 10pm. Fast isn't it? After setting out, went to Nek Che's house. Listen to all the stories. My father was hilarious! He told Nek Che that my mum have a farm! Well, it's just farmville. It was so funny! My father even had his serious face on! Oh, when my mum said something about being sleepy, Nek Che thought she wanted to bathe! Hahah, so far away lah. It was a great night. Stayed until 1am. Kak Nor asked sister and I if we wanted to sleep at Along's house. So went to Along's house. Atif was so active at night! There was once, he climbed over the car seat(7-seater) from the back row all the way to the front because he wanted to follow Along. Well, Along already went out so

HIIII! Cute right? LOL. I made myself laugh! :D Gonna leave Singapore for awhile. Hope I'll enjoy my time in Malaysia. Coming back in two days or three. Depends. Once I'm back, Qaisarahs will be mine! I miss both of those kids so much! Those Bambams. :D

Hey. I'm feeling,......I don't know what. Have been having this type of emo-then-happy-then-sad feeling ever since I came back from camp. I don't even know what's my real problem is. :/ Leaving Singapore tomorrow, going back to father's original hometown. I can't wait. Can't wait to leave all the stuff here for awhile. Looking at the beautiful geographical world, take a breather. Hopefully, I can still come down for the BBQ. There's still hope, really. Might be back on Monday or Tuesday. Let's hope it will be Monday. Then I'll have no more plans, just awaiting for results. After that, see how life will turn for me. I don't know what is happening to me. Just hope that all the crazy emotions will go away and I'll be happier soon. Maybe, this is just my holiday mood. Which means, I'm sad and bored.

I went to training today, after a longgggggggggggg time! NC1, NC4, AC1 and AC2 were there. I really had a good laugh with the guys team. I don't think I can set a case with them. I will always laugh like crazy. Jacky was like totally hilarious. Saw how he got so 'nervous' and laughed when checking AVPU. LOL! Then, ended at 4.50pm. Alright, nothing much to say. Gonna leave Singapore until Monday? Might be able to come for bbq~ YEAH! Hopefully :D

I love this song! Well, put aside that both are men. Chris Colfer's voice is awesome. Like putting a little edge to a nice woman's voice. Hence, this song is stuck in my head for Christmas. Oh no no no (quoted from The Little Rascals ) Explained all.

I haven't blog much these days. Reason? I really don't have anything to blog about. Another day is just like the day before. Slacking around, watching or not watching tv, updating status, surfing the net. Nope, I'm not that dead bored yet. Have to enjoy this time very much because it will end in 4 weeks time. Talking about 4 weeks, I'm scared, terrified, horrified, out of my mind for the results. I'm just really afraid of what I might get. What if I don't pass L1? What if I don't pass combined humanities? What if my L1R5 is more than 20? Yes, now I'm going through all the what ifs. I hope none of the what ifs come true. If it does, you'll see me in the hospital. (: Talking about hospital, we still haven't collect money from hq. HAHAH! Nahh, I'm too lazy to go hq just to collect $15. I'll donate it back to hq okay. Since we are a voluntary organisation and don't receive money from government, So, better donate on 29 Dec, SJAB's fla

This post is two days late. And this will be a happy post. :D 15 DEC Woke up early for the news. Then after everyone left the house, got ready for the later part. Rushed. Met up with Halima. Was late for the meeting. LOL! Car ride was awesome. HAHAH! It was so weird. We reached Cikgu's house. Walked, sat, discussed. And I thought the discussion would be long. In the end, it lasted for about half-an-hour only. LOL. Then trained to meeting place. Was early so had brunch alone. The KFC boy was bored I can tell. Hahah. He made the KFC like his own place, talking to his peer loudly so everyone who knows Malay could hear. Then he was extra friendly and helpful. In one way it was good, maybe he just wants to be employee of the month. In another, it was getting up to my nerves. It was kind of annoying to watch him. Cannot eat in peace~ Walked around the mall. Kept visitting the toilet. HAHAH! I think I visitted it like 4 times. I went in there to pack my bag. LOL! Soon after that, met up w

Today is my brother's birthday. So, Happy Birthday Abg Iwan! Well, later, will have a meeting. Then after that, an outing. Hope it will be awesome. For now, I just don't know. My 4-month old cousin just passed away this morning. Well, she's in Batam so my mum and sister went there with my uncle. I feel so bad for not going. I feel horrible. Ain't she cute? Her name is Ratna Az Zahra. I haven't even met her yet. Now she's gone. I feel horrible as I won't be able to meet her in person ever. So many things happening today. There's the UG meeting, Corps own training, meeting for gathering, outing. I feel guilty having fun while I know my uncle and aunt is suffering. I should be there to cheer my 6-year old cousin who had just lost her sister. Instead. I'm making myself feel worse. I'm such a horrible person. Period.

I'm out of ideas. I don't know what to do. People can't make it. I'm stressed out. No wonder my profile picture shows a candy smiley. Maybe time knew that I'm not going to smile much anymore these days. Wednesday is coming soon. I'm dying. Other people wanted an outing. Then pushed all the plannings to me. They don't even lend a helping hand. Now after everything is done, they may not be coming. Maybe it's karma. I don't know what to do anymore. I guess I'm stuck. Just gonna forget this outing for awhile and be happy a little while more. Oh yeah. Cikgu asked me to be one of his planner. Then I realised that I can't even attend his gathering. What a sad story.

I'd like to think that all the bad mood is due to PMS. Yet, it's not good to blame PMS all the time. I don't know what's wrong with me. Times like this, I feel so screwed, lonely, like the whole world is against me. No, let me correct that. Like I'm against the world. I just get mad, moody, angry. It's all negative. What if the outing turns out to be a failure? I can't do this alone. I need cooperation. Why must you work? We're only 16. Can't you work next year? I'm so lost. I don't know what to do. I don't even know if I should go on with this. But I can't disappoint others. Please don't back out anymore. I can't handle this. I'm weak. I can't do this all by myself. Can't you see? I'm falling. Prove me wrong. 3 more days. I'm scared. And outings are supposed to be fun. Unlikely to be this situation. ):

Had a great day at Sentosa today! Visited Universal Studios (for photos only) and I especially love the candy shop! Then ate. Took a ride on the luge! Plus the Skyride. Hahah. I was hyperventilating on the skyride. Especially when it stopped. Scary all the way top! Hahah, I'm going to be stressed again. Outing, outing. Don't fail me. ):

Went to Pahang for camp again from 4th-7th Dec. It's gonna be lengthy cos all the photos are in Facebook and ruined. DAY 1 Parents sent to school. Admin stuff settled and headed to customs around 7am. NCOs took the van! Special mah. :D So day 1 was mostly the ride to Pahang. HAHAH! Cannot sleep, so difficult to find the right position to sleep in the van. Invaded the bus during one of the stops. Reached the cave around 5.30pm. (AT LAST!) Bunked in. Had dinner and helped Group 4 with their cheers. Then had campfire after dinner. GROUP 6! Hahah, most hyper of all. Consist of the NCOs and Officers. The campfire started out with a "How low can you go" game. Sabo-ed YZ for Group 6 and forced MsV to play also. Then had a few cheers. More games like the mirror game . Oooh, Clara sexy sio. Hahah! She was freaking hilarious. Too bad that I didn't took a video of it. ): MsT and MsV were forced to do it also. SZ and NA represented Group 6! More cheers. Then the campfire songs.

Finally, hospital attachment is over. I'm gonna miss the cute and caring aunties. I just fed an auntie before my shift ended. Awww, felt sad. Anyway, it's finally over now. No more going so far in the afternoon. Tomorrow going to Pahang(again)! Haven't pack yet. :P I'm sleepy already. Must wake up to pack! :D Will be back soon. To a busy week ahead. (:

3rd day of working. It has been very tiring but fun too! Especially when we get to observe cool stuff that we used to learn. This is the real thing! Going "Ohhhhh" and "Oooooooh" at every minute of watching how the nurses do it. 2 more days. What will I write in my booklet tomorrow? O.o