Live your life, ♥

You would think that at my second rry, I would get better. I would know how to get this done. I would try harder. The truth is I'm not getting better, I don't know how to get this done and I'm not trying harder. I'm just lost. And I'm scared. What did I put myself into?

I apologise to my friends who are reading for I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I don't know what's in me. There are some days that I don't feel right. I don't feel positive about myself. I feel like I'm worthless. I feel like everything I do is wrong. I feel like I should just be away from everyone for the better of everyone. And maybe I should just go. I'm sorry and good bye. bawa aku pergi pacu laju-laju kita lari dari realiti bawa aku pergi pacu laju lagi malah kita tak perlu kembali

It's raining heavily and I feel like writing something emotional. It has been raining heavily for the past few days. No. It's okay, I have other things to do HAHAH. In any case, do remember: "The doors of Heaven to mercy will be opened in four situations: when it rains, when a child looks kindly at his parent's face, when the door of the Ka'bah is opened, and when marriage (occurs)." So, Alhamdulillah for the rain :)

I went to NUS today and my parents asked why. I told them I wanted to doa so I could get there next year. So, tomorrow I'm going for the parade if my parents ask why, what should I say? Cakap nak doa dapat kahwin ah HAHAHAHA!