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So, this is my very last 2011 post. Well, every single year has its own ups and downs. For 2011, I guess, it has been a lot of downs, With my family, with Singapore (so many bad stories and stuff had happened) and life. I guess, the only thing that made 2011 really awesome is that I got in PJC with my great close friends (especially Atq and Jnh!), got into the most greatest class ever - 11S13 - with the most incredible classmates and crazy awesome pw groupmates (Izza, Lava & Nat) and met the crazy super fun people from MCS, especially my clique of 7! So, I used to feel so dampened that I got into PJC and now, I'm so glad that I was put into PJC. Without it, I would probably cannot wait to leave 2011, but actually, I really don't want 2012 to come yet. Haizz. I feel scared that 2012 is coming. A Level year! ): I bet something big is coming this 2012. I hope not much will change. But who am I kidding, life will always surprise you. Always will, and you will just

So, I'm finally half done with cleaning up the room. Will continue with my own "Make-the-room-nicer" mission in March or something. Yay. And I haven't touch my homework. Just printed important stuff that will hopefully help me to do better for next year. Yay. Hmm, so I had a crazy idea to go search for people's blog. Awesome. Plus, read my old shared blog with bffs. HAHAHAH! Couldn't stand it! Didn't had the will to read everything. Silly girls back then :P Okay, that's it. My mundane, average life. Hmm. Hope things get better at home today. I thought it was over, but they got a little crazy fight and it's beginning again. Stuck in between. Feel like Aria in Pretty Little Liars. Trying to save my family. ): InsyaAllah, Allah will help us through this. He got this. I just need to pray and do my best to help around. :/

Hello! So had a great celebration for daddy! (: That was a longggg shopping with kakak for his present. It was difficult to buy a gift for a guy. You know, we can buy just about anything for girls but for guys, the only options are bags, shoes or tees. Talking about guys and girls, what's up with the relationship stuff in Facebook? Not that I'm generalising people, just certain people. First, with that " I'm dying cos you're not here and I'm missing you so much ): " HELLO!~ Your boyfriend just went across the border to somewhere in Malaysia okay! It's not like he's going there for 2 weeks or something. It's just bloody 3 or 4 days, can't you be patient?! And it's just in MALAYSIA okay, not like he's fighting in a war in Taiwan or something right! So, you don't have any friends is it? No friends to hang out with while he's away? Are you that lonely, dear girl? GOSH! And talking about friends, when you

HEYYO! It's good so damn awesome to be back at home! But I have 3 bad ulcers in my mouth ): Anyway, supposed to come back on the 25th but sadly, the car tire went flattttt~ So yeah, got back yesterday instead! (: So the trip was normal like any other normal kampong trip. Slept at kampong, shopped at the malls of Malacca. And got a taste of horror too. With my aunt constantly telling us the ghost stories. Even one with the new road. My cousin told us about the ghost story while he was driving through the road. I bet he wind down the window to scare us. LOL at the scary effect and our reactions! We practically jumped when we heard the window screeched. Yup, that was the interesting part of the trip. Oh my, it's been a really long time since I typed this long. It's almost too awkward to type. Okay. So it's my daddy's birthday! Haven't got him a present yet :/ How how how? Hmm. Dah lah, need to kemas the room. Kbye.

Running a little temperature today. That's what happens when you don't sleep for the last 27 hours. Hmm, I don't even make sense now lorrrrr. My brain is just tired. Feeling lethargic ooooh................ Hmm, firstly, I couldn't get my 2006 SYF video ): Really wanted to watch it. But oh well, it's all memories for now. Haizz, I really want to eat ice-cream or something sweet and soft now. Foods that you don't really need to chew. But the condition of my taste bud now is horrible. D: Now, my stomach feels like it's going to let go of the dirt in it. BRB. HAHAH! I still feel sick. But I ate nuggets with Macs curry sauce! Yummeh~! :D

As I sat in the middle of the dance room alone today, I thought to myself how lonely I am right now. Maybe because I'm like anti-social. Hmm, I'm always wondering who to share my sadness with whenever I'm not feeling too good. You know, it's the feeling when you want to share with people you are closest with but you don't contact with them that much at that point of time so you are afraid that you are just using them. Always like that. If only. ;/ Ahhhh, watching Cut Amirah last episode now. Aduhai, Hisyam's smile is haaaaaiiiiiiiiii~ (: But he got a wife and 2 kids already. :/ If only I could find a guy just as dreamy as him. Well, he is dreamy, that's why he's my dream guy. Okay lame. Sorry, I'm just so in love with his smile right now. ~~~~~:D

Hello! It's going to 3am in 21 minutes time. I'm still not asleep yet. Well, I believe I can go to sleep if I just close my eyes. But, I don't think I can with the work I have to do. So yeah, I'm still awake. Doing Drama now. My gosh, my language is shitty now. I forget all the beautiful words I once knew. Even my friend who didn't take Malay for a whole year could write a beautiful essay and ironically, I'm the one who's suffering from a bad language. Pfft. :P And my thighs are cramping up now. Whyyyyy! I did my stretching yesterday. I feel like I fractured my leg or something. Haiyo. Complained too much. ): Hmm, I want to watch New Year's Eve. Can't watch it alone right? Or can I? (: LOL. Sigh. Confessions of a loner. :/ Hmm, read her blog. It's so sad that you know, you once knew everything that's happening around your friend. And now, you no longer do because you're drifted away. Just bec

Holla~ So after a long weekend of deciding between Metro or Dance, I choose to go for Dance instead and of course, I'm so glad I did! :D Well, Mr Azmi was starting on the positioning and all so who can afford to miss that? He don't see you for the day, he just won't include you. It's no longer about being a good dancer or having the height or not like it used to be in primary school. And talking about primary school, I swear I'm missing my girls from SAPS! It's like I badly want to meet up with them but except for 1, the rest just couldn't make time. In a certain way, I'm angry for them not making time but what more can you do? And yeap, so I'm glad with my decision. Even played 3 games after dance. And had a shoot-off with Aizat for Wild Wild West. Yeap, I'm competitive. Now you know. HAHAH. Oh, jumping back to today, I had lunch with Iffa. Great talk by the scenery of the LRT. Who knows how our lives will exactly unfo

Hello~ My phone is officially not perfect. I have to call with the speaker now. Yeaps. Anyway, today had Metro CIP. Hmm, it is such a tiring job. :/ I think it is due to the day before. We all didn't have enough rest. So tired. And I'm heartbroken again. ): BTR's Elevate is out of stocks once again. Lalalalalala. Oh I miss my primary school friends. Saw one of them today. His smile, yikes, melt-able. Hehehe. Nahhh, that's nothing. Really :P Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.1

.... All I want for Christmas is.... No. I don't celebrate Christmas. :P Okay, still wondering what's wrong with Izza. Hmm. She haven't tweet. It's like so long already. Hope she's just fine. Anyway, I have class tomorrow. And I have yet to read the novel. Have been watching Pretty Little Liars. And oh my, how interesting the storyline is. And watching Glee too. Urghs, Glee's next episode is next month. That's so long! Dumdedum. Gonna get back to my episodes! :D

Hello! I didn't get my Elevate today. :( Went all the way there to find out that it was already sold out. Sad isn't it. Haizz. It's okay. Gonna get it still. Just trying to control myself from listening to their songs. I want to fall in love for the first time by listening to the songs through the album. Oh well, I really need to start reading Restu for real. Really do the Beijing assignment. And really start on my homework. :/ I'm trying so hard to push away this feeling. And I think it's working. Yet, I know, deep inside, I'm still frustrated when I see you and her. And I know she like you better than I do. I should just stop. I should.

Hello. Just ended dance. Now sitting by the grand stand, taking some fresh air, cooling myself down. Getting blisters all over my feet! And I didn't even finish the dance fully or perfectly. Unlike Haris and Shaffiqa who have done the routine so many times (like at least 7 rounds or more) and their soles are still fine! Okay, maybe a few blisters but lesser than what I have. Lol. I should stop complaining and start stepping up. I need more stamina if I want to do my best with dance! Heheh. Wonder what's taking them so long inside. Hmm, it's so quiet outside without the hockey people. Heheh. No wonder this is Firzanah's favourite place! Now I understand better. Oh my, have I become like anti social or what. I prefer some quiet, peaceful time alone to sitting around with my friends and talking about random stuff. My feet still hurts a lot. Well, it's okay. Gonna get my BTR album today! Nyehehehe! I don't care how far the place is. If

22% is taking forever! In any case, Today is okay, I guess. Just more tiring than usual but I'm getting better. Hahah. I'm crazy. I'm so gonna get Elevate-d tomorrow! Heheheheh! So exciting! Hope it won't be too expensive though. :/ If only they sell it at Popular or something. Yeah, can't wait! Urgh, can't get to 79% eh? Kan, baru aku cakap, dah 79%. Tak boleh naik 80% eh? HAHAHAHAH! Merepek!

Hello. Well, I've been away. TO BEIJING! But, really, stories of what happened in Beijing is just like too much to share. So, let's just keep it as memories in my head. And now, the aftermath of going away. Hmm, every school trip has its own drama, I guess. *Roll eyes in bewilderment* Haiyo. I just hope it won't be awkward. Seriously. Forget about the whole thing. Lol. It's a "you know, I know, they don't know" kind of situation :/ Tomorrow is going to be a normal day, alright! Dance practice in the morning, drama planning in the afternoon, a little bit of shopping after that and study in the evening. or maybe study in the evening . HEHEH :P

Hey. Great news today. I got promoted. Meaning I will go to J2 next year. Sadly, I'm not so happy that I got promoted. Well, with the results I have, I won't be ready for A's next year~ And maybe I've prepared myself mentally that I will retain too much till it became numb when I knew I got promoted. Or maybe, because I just want to be there for them who didn't. Hmm, you know, it's difficult to cheer up another who didn't make it. It's like, to them, we can say it's fine and everything because we did make it. Hmm. It's just so sad. I really didn't deserve to get promoted. Seriously, I don't deserve it. But, I should be thankful. Just hoping my friends who didn't make it through won't give up. Hmm, I wish I could be with them. :/

): The jacket is not done yet. I'm so pissed. Just so disappointed. Well, they say that they could get it done by 16th, Then only started to tell me the problems they encounter when I sent them another email to ask about their progress. Just so URGHSSS! Totally no more mood. Everything is just taking its toll on me. Everything. Haizz. Today was supposed to be a good day. With PW over and done with finally. Hmm, the moment with my group mates was awesome. "This is the last thing you have to sign to end your contract with PW" Hahahaa~ I'm gonna miss being a pw rep. :/ And I'm prepared for the bad news tomorrow. But all I need is one good news to make it a whole lot better. :(

I'm supposed to be doing my I&R. There's a whole lot of things I need to settle before tomorrow. The CD for PW, the I&R(get it done and printed), the jackets, the souvenirs and t-shirts for SJ. Amidst this all, I'm still waiting even though I know I have to DO. Not WAIT. I think because I'm anxious for the jackets. I really hope it could be done by tomorrow so I can give it to the class on the 17th. Well, 17th is the last day for a full class. You know, if I could give it to them on the 17th, then it would be perfect. I mean, at 10.30 is the promo result. But from 9am to 10.30am, it's the camwhoring part of the day. So, if we could get the jacket then there's like so much reason to camwhore. Heheh. I'm really scared if they couldn't get it done by tomorrow night. :/ And omgosh, so much distraction right now~ Cut Amirah is on. I really need to get my I&R done :P ):

It's a really basic word and may not consist of any emotion. But if you want to believe how you want it to be, it's really like a dream come true. :P He's online now. And I feel like talking to him. Haizz. What if I'm like this nuisance to him. I mean, you know, those kind of people you just have to be nice to but you don't really want to entertain them. Sigh. And furthermore, I'm afraid. Maybe he'll just go "Get away from me" and stuff. Then, wouldn't it be awkward in school. D: But I really really really want to start a conversation. Hmm.

HEY! Saturday had been such an adventurous day for me! Okay, wait. Let's talk about 11.11.11 first. *SCREAMS* He replied my hello with a "hi"~ It was around 11+ so I assume it's 11.11pm. Hehehs. Oh so dreamy. But stupid me was already out of Facebook. Should have replied him. D: Anyway, back to Saturday. Morning was normal, followed parents to a wedding. Cute kendarats but they were from Myanmar. One even look like Irwansyah. Haizz. Lol. So wanted to send Kakak to school. And she asked us to go through this flooding lane. Went there and "BOOM!" car broke down. So we had to rush out in the midst of the flood, because we were afraid that the car would just explode. It was interesting but so damn scary. And watching the car being towed away, the feeling is similar to watching a dear one pass away. :'( Yeap, no car for a few weeks. After that, went home and rushed to meet Iffa and Diyanah. Watched " JELANAK JELUWEK

Dah dah, maximum point of craziness reached. Shit shit shit. Feeling like a stupid girl. Blablabla

Hello! I'm quite a happy girl today~ Well, that's basically because, MY OP IS OVER! :P:P:P:P What's left of PW is the I&R! Hahah. Omgosh, I think the presentation mode still hasn't run out. Because, as I type, I can hear myself presenting this to you. HAHAHAHAH! It's all kind of worth it, you know. I mean when you think back, and the feeling you get when you have completed the task like the WR and OP, all you feel is joy and nothing about the worst moment of PW. Those staying up late and all is a bliss. Yet, yesterday was horrible! Broke down twice because I was too tired and stressed out. Well, didn't sleep at all so I was awake for like the 22 hours or so. And I couldn't remember my script so I got stressed for screwing up so much. Plus, my teacher wasn't making things easier that she wanted to keep us till late night. Felt guilty that I kind of shouted at her though. Not getting enough rest, I knew I really needed it before

I'm this close to giving up. This close. I hate this. Everything. Is just. Back to depression. :(

Hello! I'm so freaking hungry now~ Family went out and didn't brought home food. Apparently, my mum is fasting today. Well, tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji! :D It's not much about celebrating. I mean, We used to celebrate it since my grandparents were still here. Now that I have no more grandparents, it's kind of a on-off thing. Like, the mood is not there but then when it comes to the day, I still want to celebrate it. How? Go to the mosque. That's the only way to get the raya mood up! :D Currently doing my pw. I mean, what else right? Editing videos. Supposed to have done it 2 days ago. But every time I just get started, I just don't have the motivation to go on. So I stop and sleep. Heheh. But I must get it done by today. Well, it's kind of due today. Lol. Now you know why. :P Haizz. Enough of getting distracted. Maybe one more peep at fb and then back to work~! Takecare~~~

That title is so fake and blearghs. Well, because I dream of a someone so that doesn't mean I have to go talk that someone or anything right. -.- Yaaa, I always tend to don't make sense. Exactly my point. *nods head* Anyway, I'm supposed to be doing my project video and a heart shape. Just so lazy and tired. Hmm, tomorrow? :/ Oh yeah. Should I buy a guitar or keyboard? I really want to be able to play either. And all I need is to buy the instrument. While keyboard is easy to learn and soothing, Learning how to play guitar is manageable too. Plus, you can carry a guitar around while a keyboard is usually to heavy and big to be brought around. So dumdumdum! GUITAR IT IS! Maybe after As then I will pursue with keyboards. (:

Hey. Same old story, every night. Just wish you could shut up. Stop stealing my father-daughter moment. ): Just want you to be gone. Really. You're ruining my life. My family life. And I'm left with nobody. :/ Sigh, my Loggie will cheer me up (:

Hey. I'm having a bad temper now. Well, had been having this kind of bad nights. PMS siol. :/ Okay, now I'm fine. Soon I won't be again. Seriously. Something is wrong with me. ):

Hey. I'm feeling so emo right now. Haizz, I have no idea why or how it happened. I guess I'm just sad. ): ): ); )': )'; ); ):

Hey! HAPPY DIWALI EVE! I feel so free today. One because there's no school tomorrow. Two because WR IS FINALLY DONE AND OVER WITH BAYBEHHH! After gruelling months of staying up all night, slaving to the laptop to complete drafts and drafts of WR, it's finally completed. Printed, binded, just left with burning into cd and writing our details. Then all that's left are the OP, GPF and I&R. Heeeee. Oh wait, there's still the GPP. Sigh, another killer. The first thing that killed us. D: Oh yeah. Ryan Lee Wen Han saw me today! Which means, I met him today! (DUH!) OMGOSH~ How long has it been since I last met him like seriously. Hahah. Good old times :P Haaaa, I had fun today. Had fun teasing Izza with my groupmates, had fun with Basy and Atq during Malay, had fun helping Mira with pw, had fun spending time with myself and finally taking the time to do what I had to do. (: Though, my parents knew my chances of retaining. Sigh, that'

HEY! Feeling kind of crazy right now. Urghs. I want someone to talk to me but guess like nobody has the time for that kind of thing any more. Okay no. Don't be an ass. I want to start a conversation but I'm just too scared if there's nothing else to talk about after the "Hello". Or the person is too busy to entertain me. ): I feel so desperate for attention right now. Cos seriously, not interacting with anyone makes me really crazy. )': Well, that's why I have you blog. (: Currently doing my wr. I feel too bored doing it over and over. Seriously, I think I'll only touch pw again at 8 or something. Now looking for something to do. Sighs.

Hey blog. I finally completed wr and stuff. I hope Ms Leong won't comment much. You know, 2 days to the assigned date, if there's a lot of things to change, I can't imagine that feeling. ): So, hopefully not. (: Sigh. I think I think I think. It's true. I think I think I think. I know myself a little more now. But why why why. I don't know why.

Heyyy! I'm so happy because I've got a great deal for the class jacket. And, a new episode of BTR is out! Watching now. BRB.

Hey. It's been such a loooooooooooooooooooooooong time ever since I last blogged! Life has been um, how do I say this, just not that fine. Well, everyone is living a complicated life. Anyway, I have 24-14= 10 hours left to somehow "enjoy" myself. Getting my promo results tomorrow. Not the real promotional status. But sure, it will be an emotional day tomorrow. Sheesh, I'm scared. I'm scared of letting the tears run, seeing others unhappy, and feeling depressed cos I can't cheer them up. Anyhow, I have a lot of work to do today. I have to send emails. Work on my I&R. And then the WR. Start up with my St John stuff because it has been going on for way too long! :P Sigh, it's not over yet. How come I feel like it is? I'm sure gonna cherish these few days a lot. Oh yeah, let's leave on a happy note! I just sent an enquiry to SYF person regarding the cds. Hope they get back to me soon and I'll get to purc

And I pray, One day when I get older and have my own family, and my siblings have their own family too, We will be in peace, Not having to let my nieces and nephews hate me for treating their parents badly, Nor having my child to hate my siblings Just as I am hating my uncles who don't give a damn about my mother and always making her suffer, Manipulating her to make her feel her children are always in the wrong, Forgetting who she should trust most despite the obvious. Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

I feel like crying now. )': Hanz is leaving for poly. Shit, I will miss him very much. This also means that there's a very high chance I won't be with S13 next year. Maybe we will be disbanded because our class is too small. I really want to cry. What will happen next year? Well, could I even get promoted this year? I just hope for the best. :/ Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

Hey! So my laptop is all fixed now. Though the man said that the graphic thingy is spoilt. So I can't go to youtube, I guess. :/ But phew, Finally, "trials" are over and everything is fine. Thank goodness my brother was helpful and supportive. (: I'm really grateful to have siblings who can help me in desperate times. (: K, back to physics. Done stalking people. Tsk tsk. "You may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one."

Hey~ My life has be like on trials ever since my laptop screen was fixed. I live with fear and paranoia everyday, having to answer questions from my family. Stupid mistake. None of this would have happen if ... But well, it already did. I think I'm going insane. I am a bit close to going crazy. Just like a super depressed kid. So like primary 6. Hmm. I will be fine. Everything will be over soon And I will be fine. Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

HEEEEY! So I had quite an adventure today~! :D Well, I had Sastera in the morning. Class was fun, cikgu was a bit high. And he kept doing cartoon voice impersonations. LOL! So after that, I went to Clementi Mall. And wanted to take the bus back. The first that came to my mind was the bus stop in front of my gran's old house. It was seriously nostalgic. Well, it was my childhood place. The place I use to play and see the world from when I was younger. ): Okay, back to the story. I was supposed to go to the opposite. Unfortunately, the bus I wanted don't go that direction. So I was searching for a bus stop that had the bus I wanted. I walked and walked till I met with a dead end. Hence, I walked further and found a swing set. Decided to play for awhile and messaged Atq for help. HAHAH! When I was done resting, I walked all the way to some end. Suddenly, I found myself at West Coast Food Centre. Hahah, that was too far already! I seriously had o idea

Hello! So, the weekend is finally here! That means, Promos will be here in 3 days. Sighs, that is just a mood killer. Well, I can't wait for the 2 weeks to be over. I can pass and get promoted alright. Insyaallah! (: So yesterday, Ain thought us a new game. And she is just so funny! I was observing her the whole way throughout dinner! Her expressions were too hilarious, I can't tank. :P And today, I got my frolicks! Shared with some of my love ones in school. Felt guilty though, I didn't share with Diyanah. Really, I felt seriously guilty. Shall buy for her next time. :D AND The best announcement of the night is... MY LAPTOP SCREEN IS FIXED! I can see everything so clearly and wide now! Happy girl! But... My windows is suffering. I can't open it, haizz. Good enough, my laptop have this splashtop thingy. So I can use this instead of windows. Though, my documents and the other stuff in windows are in danger. And I'm so scared of

Hellooooo! There's just so many things to share about yesterday! Hmm. Monday blues was still present. But the evening was kind of awesome! (: So, due to the lack of sleep (just 2 hours!), I just had to sleep in Chemistry and slack in Math. I realised that Math can always only last for 30 min at most. Usually by the 2nd 30th minute, people would get bored because it's the same old concept. So after school, Hayyu drove me and Hanz to the school bus stop. Hahaha! Dah sah budak-budak pemalas! Went to Popular and after that head down to Amirah's! Hahaha. It's like I just met her 10 days ago :P Then went back to school to study with Mira. Saw Haris so yeah, group study! Like now when I'm supposed to be studying with them. I'm updating my blog instead. Tsk tsk tsk. Oh, next after we were done, went to Lot 1 for dinner. On our way to Lot 1, there was this group of mats who just so suddenly Said out loud, "ni yang kau kater kau punyer

HELLO! I'm supposed to be doing my pw shit. Or at least study for promos. Sighs. But here I am! So I wanna blog about Friday. We played SKIPPING ! S13 will be skipping our way to victory during Interhouse! Oh yeah, Byron is so gonna win! :D Confident! That was like the best PE ever or the second best but yeah, that PE was awesome! Then Malay class was fun too! Talked about Gajah Putih which lead us to Islamic stories. Part of the lesson was like madr. And I really love lessons like these. I got to learn more about the cerpen and also more about my own religion. After Malay, went to meet Tommy with Hayyu and Lava. Hayyu was so excited to meet Tommy. But Tommy was bathing when we reached. Hahah, Tommy almost scratched Hayyu a few times becuase she was disturbing him when he doesn't want to be disturbed. 3 hours break went by quickly. Full of chit-chatting with Hayyu, Firzanah, Iffa and Hanz. Malay after that was a continuous series of awesome. So was

Helloooooo! I'm feeling a little different today. Tired but I'm happy. Tired due to this never ending cough. I haven't been sleeping well with this cough. So some lessons just lullaby me to sleep. :P Well, I'm happy today because we showed why you shouldn't attack Cikgu Zainal's beloved students! :P Kranji power! :D Oh yeah, Went for lunch with the boys in my class. Hahah, Hayyu paitao only. But we saw a person fainted along the way. Hairizad's reaction was so hilarious tapi tak perlu Hahah! I felt guilty and ashamed though. Make me feel so shitty because I should have done something. Yet, I'm not brave nor daring. Sighs. Okay. They totally made my day. Off to sleep now to get my rest. Byeeeeee!

HELLO! It's Sunday and last day of the good September holidays. So, my raya is "officially" over. :P I really had a good one this year! I've spent time with MCS, S13, 4HML and SAPS! 4HML! Hahah, the cute and crazy girls as always. I mean even though I see most of them in Pioneer, we don't really get to talk much. So, when it comes to raya outing, zoooooom! It's like we're all in the same school again. We went to Ms Nat's house for the first time. Hahah, she said my 4D class used to be her worst class. P: I really miss her attacking people and her favourite word of the day was selengeh ! LOL. And of course, I had my own adventure too during the outings. My shoes were torn so I had to buy a new one. I was glad it could last till we reached CCK mrt. HAHAH! After that, I went barefooted in Lot 1 and just started shuffling my steps to BATA. Buy And Throw Away . Continued with the jalan raya. At the last house, while eating Ami'

Hello! I've had the time of my life today! With myself :P I know, it sounds wrong, weird but everyone needs their alone time and just have fun alone! (: So today, I went to Perdure. Finally convinced myself to fix my screen. It cost me $190. ): Well, thank goodness for Hari Raya collections. The guy dismantled my laptop. In the end, it just became pieces of metals and plastics. :0 Well, they didn't have the screen yet. So the guy had to put everything back in. And I have to come back in a week to get my laptop fixed. D: After I was done with that, went to Lot 1. My main objective was to buy presents. My search turns out to be searching presents for myself. :P I bought 4 new movies that I really wanted to watch but didn't have the time. I also bought toys for myself, claiming that it was for my niece. Heheh. Yet, I still managed to achieve my objectives. So yay! I seriously can't hold that much money in a day or else, it will all be gone

HELLO BLOG! It's been quite a few days since I've last blogged. Well, I've been so busy and caught up in the festive season that by the end of the day, I'm just too tired to blog. Hold on~ I'm too hungry to blog now. Haven't eaten since 2pm. :/ Okay, I'm back. So, went for raya with MCS dancers on the 3rd day of raya. It was fun but tiring. Went to all 9 houses and end up reaching home only at 2am. First time ever. That's crazyyyyy! Talking about crazy, Aizat's sister used to be in the same madrasah as me. And she is....Esty. Wild discovery! Hahah, seriously, I'm still in disbelief till now. Well, the funniest part of the outing was at Mira's house. We were watching Ngesot. Not that scary but the screams from Iffa and Firzanah made it shocking. Hahah. So there was one time when Haris and Ain planned to scare Aizat. Ain hid Haris' movements which he was crawling to Aizat. Epic reaction from a guy! Another was when Mira's br

Hello! So now, we're comng to the 3rd day of Raya! 1st day was awesome! I mean, not that awesome like usual but just awesome! My whole family's theme is pinkish purple. Well, there was pink, pinkish purple and totally purple! I'm waiting for my sister-in-laws to upload the family photo cos what I have is somehow not the "perfect" ones. 2nd day was spent in school. Due to the late sleep the day before (yes, because of darn pw), I didn't totally survived the whole day. But it's quite amazing how I almost survived. :P Had Malay mock paper too. In the midst of writing my essay, I got a few seconds shut eye. Hahah. You could see that there is a part of my essay which are full of strikes, obvoiusly proving that I dozed off. Lol. Gonna have jalan raya with MCS later! Eh tak tak eh tak tak eh tak tak eh! I'm so excited. Hmm, what colour should I wear? 0.0 Also will have jalan raya with S13 tomorrow. Omgosh, okay, I'll go look for clothes now. HEHE

Heyyo! Selamat Hari Raya Aidifitri S3MUA! 1 Islamic month passed by so quickly. I couldn't even grasp the moment and the day to celebrate is here. Hmm, the house is still a bit messy. Friends will come on the 3rd day of raya. Noooo! Hahah. Okay, I want to seek forgiveness if I have written anything offensive in this blog. May you all have fun later and tomorrow and whenever. "Pakcik dan Makcik asyik bersembang hai duit raya lupa diberi" :P Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

Hello! I have put up the chatbox again! So, if you do drop by and by chance, read my post, tag me alright? Be it anonymous, nameless or with names, just write something there :D Read the old tags. I realised, I really miss my juniors! My NC1 kiddies especially. When the time comes, I'm so gonna have reunion with them. I'm thinking maybe, ET's birthday? Or after their Os, that's totally fine too :P I just hope for it to happen. (: Oh no, I've caught the runny nose. Those sore throat days were trying to warn me after all. But what could I do. I'm fated to have this flu now. Better now than later. Ramadhan is soon coming to an end. Just 2 more days and bid goodbye to Ramadhan, say hello to Syawal. And then, just pray hard that He will grant you the wish to meet Ramadhan again next year. And then, end it all with smiles and amen. (:

Hello! I'm so thankful and overjoyed! Firstly, my wishes came true! My brother is coming home for Raya! Even though he's going off for work on the 2nd day, he'll still be here on the 1st day! I can have my family photo with addition of Aqilah! I can't wait! Well, I'm not really close with my brothers. But I definitely don't like it if anyone was missing on the first day. I really love and appreciate family reunion. I feel the sense of belonging, the fun, and the most loved. (: Another wish of mine came true too. I'm just thankful and surprised that my wish was answered. (: Well, the house is almost done. Just left with my corner and the kuihs! Omgosh, all the parts of mine :/ Yes, my raya outings, I'm so excited! I hope Firzanah will come. It won't be a full circle without her ): But really, I'm so excited for raya now. Finally, I'm feeling the berkat of Ramadhan. The joy of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah. &l

Using my time wisely now to blog. Well, it's a remedy. I don't feel emotionally well. I've been feeling rather numb lately. Oh, numb is not the word. Numb means to feel nothing. Yet, I'm feeling something but I don't know what is it. It's painful. Just in between sad and anger. Maybe hurt? Sigh. What a joy. I'm so emo. I hate me. Contradicting isn't it? To love but to hate. To feel happy but feel the pain too. I'm unarmed, My world torn apart. I don't even know what happened. I'm staring at you and I don't know what to do. I'm staring into blank space hoping something would cheer me up. Nothing. I'm just not thankful enough. Sucker.

Hello! Well, for a change, let's not talk about today. Just that I came early to school today. Like 6.30am early just to continue some part of the decorations. I'm so proud of it I kept looking at it. Hahaha. Thick skinned. Anyways. For sure, today was not that much fun. I mean, I had fun with the riddles and all during the breaks. For the heart, I'm not that sure. Something was pretty wrong with you heart. Tell me soon yeah >: Yeah, perangai bebual seorang. :P So, I have GP remedial, have to hand in a newly drafted WR in the morning, Maths quiz tomorrow and then a mass tutorial and another standardized test. Plus, we have to hand in our donation card. Maybe, continue with the decorations? May Allah give me His blessings and guidance tomorrow. I have to be strong. I have the capabilty to overcome every challenges tomorrow. Yeah, go Naj, go! :D <3 I know. I love myself too much. But if I don't, who will? (: P

Hello! So I had a great and awesome weekend! Yesterday, had an early start with Mira, Haris, Diyanah and Iffa. Met up with them to go to Geylang! We were looking for Raya decorations for school. Hot and tiring! Hahah! We found what we were looking for and went on to look for seats. Slacked for about 5 minutes or so. Then I was off to HQ for my test. Ohmy, what a difficult one. Far from what I've expected. After that, slacked at Nicoll Highway mrt with Jannah, Ain and Rui Ting. Enjoying free aircon while we awaited the arrival of RT's friend. Great catch up with them (; Up next, met up with Aniyah, sister and bro-in-law. We went to the library till it was almost time to breakfast! Went home for breakfast. Next, went to the mosque. Can you believe it, Aniyah prayed with us. That's like 17 raka'at. (: Home after prayers and we watched Fear Itself. She fell asleep after that. That made her sleepover after a very very long time! :D Today, w

When you want to fake your sickness but in the end making the sickness a reality. I feel lethargic now. Today is the first time I skipped school. Like seriously, I don't know why I told myself to do such a thing. Well, I had my reasons to skip school. First, I overslept thus I didn't want to start a late coming record. Second, I haven't done my homework hence don't want to risk myself from getting the whole class scolded by the ST. And since it's Friday, I had my reasons to come to school too! There's CCA today! I can't miss my cca even if it's for a day! (: Now that I'm in school, I feel so awkward. People I know gave me the shocked look that I'm here. And I have to explain to them why I missed school. D: The best thing? My mum don't even know she gave me the permission to skip school. Now, I'm gonna die. Shit man. :0 Had a great dinner just now. Like seriously, it was fun to disturb Firzanah with I. Hahahah

Hello! Yesterday had been such a dead-zombie day for my group members and I. Well, we all were rushing through our wr the night before. Lack of sleep and full of frustration. Hayyu and Hanz were so sweet to motivate us. (: Well, pw lecture was enlightening. Lecture was conducted by Mr Sas and hence, it was "laughable" and enjoyable. Then our mood was brought down by GP. Hahah. -.- One of the highlight of the day was the PJ's first Got Talent Competition. Martian Trio was up first, making a good opening act for the competition. I was glad that it wasn't only me who thought they were awesome! And Haris ss-ness at the back was so fun to watch. Hahahaha! He was giving his wide smile at the back at almost every single second. Lol! The rest after were alright. Good but yeah. The crowd wasn't enthusiastic enough. Hahaha. The last performance by Marley Ramly was another awesome act! The perfect closing! When they danced to "Marry You"

Hey! I'm in the library now. Having our break before GP. I don't really know what I'm feeling now. Izza told me about a boy who lose his mum a week ago. And then we started talking about death, depression and all. Well, I have been feeling sad and ridiculous these few days, and she told me something interesting. "When you are depressed, seek to Allah for help and open the Quran. He will lead you to the right way." I'm truly amazed. (: Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

So, I was sad earlier. I deleted my twitter on impulse and I'm still a little bummed out about that. ): It's like losing a love one. You'll miss the moments you've had. I guess, I'm missing out on a lot of stuff now but I shouldn't be sad. I'm actually quite happy! I saw Cik Odah and Cikgu Zaleha! I really could feel true joy and I know I almost wanted to scream out their name. I was already mouthing "CIKGU!" without a sound. Hahah! Well, that's one. Another reason why I'm happy is because I'll be meeting my friends this Wednesday! Especially when both Sher and Fida are free and the rest says they probably could make it, It's just like my dream came true. Sigh. (: Okay, I should get back to work after Isyak. PW baybehhh! :D Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

I love making myself sad. I don't know why. Someday, I'll be the boss. Just not anytime near now. Hahah. I've just deactivated my twitter account. I get mad irritated easily and that's just not right. Now, there's only you my dear blog. Just you. (: Deleting things in my life. Things I would never think of deleting. I just did. Don't worry. I still need you. I will never ever ever delete you. And if I ever lose you due to technology malfunction one day, I'll never forget you. I'll cry the whole night for you. I'll remember every single memories we shared together. I really love you blog. Thanks for always being there for me. ♥

Heyyo! I'm such a loser because I haven't posted a thing in August. It's the fasting month people! Other than that, what's new? My notebook is not halved. I'm trying to adapt to it. Well, I really want to fix it but I don't have the heart to use Ayah's money anymore. Hmm. Well, life's not that great. It's pretty awesome at one moment. And at another, it's just like suckish kind of moments. I think people are avoiding me. Or I have it all played in my head. I'm such a bad friend. Really, I'm not kidding. I feel guilty but I never do a thing. Sigh, I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess I was meant to be a loner. I don't even have a best friend. All I have are friends I could share my secrets and life with but they're already somebody else's best friends. How could I be so cruel to steal their best friends away. It's sad life really. There's no real happiness if your heart

Heyyo! Blogging all the way from school. People would think I'm doing pw now. HAHAH. K, whatever. Sigh, what's wrong with today? It feels so different. Today. Ever since morning I already knew. Is it because everyone havimg the "Monday Blues" in school? I don't know. Something is just so very wrong. Have been trying to figure this our from 8am today. Well, yeah, a big fail. Oh yeah, have been waiting for Lava from just now. Now she's backkkkk! Woots, I can home now. :D K bye.

Hey blog. I've abandoned you for so long, I'm sorry. I've been having a bad weekend nights. I just don't know why. Everything seems wrong. Must be due to such a great Friday I had. I felt so happy, nothing was wrong. Walked to Lot 1 with the lovable dancers, Laughing and going crazy under the rain. Hmm, Chem is stressing me out. I don't want another s or even a u for promo. I don't want to get retain. I don't want my parents to know I've failed everything for mye. I know it was my fault. And I'm trying so hard to do better. With a start like this, I'm just depressed. Well, I'll be fine. (:

Hello! Today was quite a boring Sunday. Well, it was sure a fun and amazing night though! (: Bro is back from Africa so the babies were here. So were my other brother and sis-in-law. And Aqilah was so freaking adorable tonight! With all the crying because she wanted some food! :D And I think I'm pretty tired now. Physically and mentally. Hahah, not because of any studying to do. Well, because, because, because, I couldn't stop thinking about you. ): Sometimes, I hate being me. I hate feeling all so emoish. I hate the fact that I get hurt so easily. I hate that I'm fragile. I hate that I feel insecure easily. When others asked me if I like anybody now, I just reluctantly say no. I want to deny the possibility of me liking you. It's just a stupid crush. Nothing but a crush. Get over it, Naj. (: I love talking to myself on twitter. And on blogger. So random. Okay, have fun partaypartay people. (:

What's so fake about you? Hmm, let me see. The fact that after I scolded you, you act like you want to tidy up the place. What are you trying to do? Steal some love away? Eff off okay. You got your own father. Omgosh, you're so good at tidying up. Omgosh, you're so good at acting too. And go far away from me lah. You just want to be screamed at again right? HAHAH! You're just too funny. Seriously, tell me what are you trying to do. Don't have to pretend please. Just want my mum to go "oh, good girl" and my dad to say it too right? And what's up with you trying to get my dad's attention so much? Want to be one of his daughters too? Pfft, you father is still here. He got shitload of stuff that he still owes my mum and still, we have to take care of you? Seriously, I'm wondering why my parents willingly took care of you. And after everything, your father still take us for granted. And what did I hear that day? Your father "jokingly" say

Hello my sayang blog! Hahahah! I feel like I'm being one of those irritating fake people I usually hate tonight. Well, I know I am. Guess why? Because I'm so thankful for todayyyy! Went to the Singapore F1 Drift Race today with my siblings! It was so bloody awesome! The atmosphere, the experience. The best part? I got to sit beside Fandi Ahmad for a photo with him and Aide Iskandar! SO AWESOME! For the first time okay, I meet local artiste and took a photo! I mean, I may have met some others before but they were mostly snobbish type..or I just couldn't take a photo with them. Then we went to eat at Tanjong Pagar Railway station till I'm like so full. Next, Marina Barrage to play water. And I really played till I got wet and stinky.. And now, I think I'm falling sick. ): Oh yes, got a meeting today and tomorrow. Sianz. I'm only looking forward to tease somebody who got himself a new post! MY PARTNER BAYBEHHH! Hahahah! I'm pretty sure he will be cursing all th

Hello! College Day is finally over. I think our final dance was the best dance we've done so far(though I made a mistake!) ! I'm so gonna miss my random geng for awhile since we won't meet for practices. I really hope there's gonna be more dance after MYE. *wishing* Yesterday had a drama "fight" with a certain drama king. HAHAHAH! We fought because I didn't want to run with him in our costumes. LOL! Oh no, it's LOOOL. :D Then he broke our friendship off. ): HAHAHAH! Dramaaaaaa. Oooh, and Mira and I created a handshake plus ankle bonus! :D Practised it in front of Cotton On! HAHAHAH! LIKE WE ARE JUST SO CUTE OR WHATTT! Okay, so back to today. Oh yeah, McD! We ordered then before college day, they came like 2 hours late. -.- Everyone was like in no mood because there was no food. HEHEH. Okay, so after we ate and all, went to MI! Awang Belanga with YH's students baybeh! Asked Mira to come along also. Shaf followed too :D . . . Okay, that's it. I&

Hmm, it's been a long while. Many things happened, things that made me feel happy or unhappy, angry or frustrated. Such things. ):

Things I have to do: GP Essay. PI. GP gender compre. Chem energetics tutorial. Chem additional question. Malay essay. Maths tutorial 6. Kinematics assignment. Forces assignment. Dynamics tutorial. There's dance tomorrow. It ends at 9.30pm. I'm sick. Stop complaining. -.-

I cannot stand this. I cannot stand this anymore. Please, just go already. Just go away from my life. Ask your damn father to go get married and get your own house. You can have all the bloody things in your house. But not in MY HOUSE! Not my mum, not my dad! Not my things, my sister's or aniyah's. NOT ANYTHING IN THIS HOUSE! Congrats. You just ruined my damn night again!

Hello. I'm not getting a new niece or nephew. )': At least it's not to the fifth months or something. Inalillahwailahirajiun . And I feel so sad today. Osama passed away already. Not that happy. Well, not everyone knows the ugly truth. Cruel people do for power hunger. Affecting my whole religion. Astargfirullahalazim . Give me the strength to stay happy, focussed, positive. Insyallah . (:

HIIII! I'm addicted to Youtube recently~ Becuase I will be trying so hard to find videos on BTR. and all videos of Logan singing or something. Heee. So today I went to Temasek JC. Aloneeee. Hahah, went to support Diyanah, Haris and Liana for Semarak Budaya! Their performance was awesome! And that's whyyyyy, THEY WON BEST PERFORMANCE! PLUS DIYANAH GOT BEST ACTRESS, LIANA GOT SECOND BEST ACTRESS! AWESOME OR WHAT?! Just like monologue group which won best performance and best director for DENAI KASIH! :D The video is in facebook. And I just learnt today that zooming in and out will affect the sound of the filming. Wasted seh! If not it would have been a great video. Anyway, I'm so in love with Logan Henderson. But I know I will never ever meet him in person. And we can never be together. Hahahahahah! So I need an eye candy soon. Not like I don't have any now. Lol. K, mentel. Stop it. Minah. Oh yeah, I'm gonna get a new anak sedara! NEPHEW/NIECE! I want nephew please! :

HOLLLAAAAAAAAA! I've been wanting to post something for thise whole week but just couldn't find the time. Well, mostly because I end up sleeping or rushing through my homework. OR... WATCHING BTR! LOGAN HENDERSON~ <3 Okay, I'm in love. So I promised my teacher that I will give her a draft PI to mark. And I have to do a Malay essay with 6 points. Plus Chemistry tutorial. ARGHHHH! Oh yeah, something interesting today. I went to Popular. HAHAH! Then some people wanted to borrow my card. Like zzzz lah. Atq asked me to ask for 50 cents charge. LOL! But eventually, the auntie gave me $2! HAHAHAH! And to think we wanted to ask for 50 cents charge! Heheheheheh! Tomorrow is Friday. PE/- I'm not looking forward to tomorrow, surprisingly. SHEEEESH!

Hello! I'm actually very emo now. At least I'm not crying today! That's awesome. Crying 3 days consecutively is horrible. After every cry, I would wonder if people think I'm such an emotional person. Well, the first day I cried was due to some people forcing me to do something I couldn't. Like how can you change me on the spot right? =.= The next two days, I cried because of SYF. We got silver. Yay! Still, I felt so guilty. I acted so stupidly. I should have just gone out of that curtain. I stupidly shifted curtains and went out at the wrong timing. I'm that stupid. My mistake was that obvious. I'm blaming myself for us not getting a gold. People have such high expectations on us. They're expecting a gold from us. And what did I do? I screw it up for them. Sorry MCS. If it wasn't for me, gold could still be ours. :/ I think this week had been the most miserable week for me. I'm just so sad and tired everyday. Well, syf really brought me down. I f

Hello! Currently, I'm in the school library. Completed my assignment that -.- will go through later. Utter crap, I'm telling you! Hahah, I don't understand a single thing please. I'm supposed to be doing work but I'm so tired. Physically and mentally tired. SYF is coming in exactly 6 days. I hope we can get GOLD(with honour) :D The very last school to perform. How nerve-wrecking and pressurizing it is for us O.O Oh, it's so cold in here. Hopefully I can complete PI by tomorrow. It's scary to hear they got mostly Bs and Cs from the seniors. Most of my kairos friends are sad with their Cs. Well, it's full of shit really to spend most of your time working on your PW and ending up with a C. Hopefully, that won't happen to me and my group. I want A! Hahah, I have a wish. Some wish that I will never ever tell until I've succeeded and completed this course of life. (: This post is full of hopes. And I'm hungry now.. Haven't eaten cos I forgot to

I hate it everytime a new month starts. I also hate it everytime the month is close to the end. It just makes me emo all the time. Every single thing can affect me. Like I'm so fragile during that period of time. Every single thing will go process thoroughly in my mind. Processing the evil thoughts of it. Then, I feel so down. All I want to do is to cry. Like now.

HELLO! Hmm, I'm very stuck at editing the blog. What should I do now? And talking about stuck, I can't do my Chem quiz. It's a freaking pissed me off thing. I can't start the quiz like whyyyyyyy omgggg! Feel so helpless. What if it affects my CA? Then I will dieeee! ): I really want to get promoted and get into University by 2013. Well, I don't want to repeat and I'm scared. ): Alright, enough about that. Hmm, I feel so ... Haizz. Why. Go away this stupid feeling. Why. Go away! Trying to cheer myself up. My heart is beating very fast. Why. Oh, and the moon is beautiful. Once every 28 days, right? Hahah, it's been 6 years of practical Science. I miss learning about Space. (:

HELLO! I've been "busy" ever since school started. Well, been "busy" since holiday started too! Hmm, so updates. We lost for Pantun. So much drama for that Pantun thing please. Hmm, FAC camp was successful. Though, day 1 totally ruined my no emo week. Hahah. MCS practice is getting a little tough too. Mentally tough. Toleration is key. (: Just watched the latest episode of glee. Kurt and Blaine kissed! Heheh. As much as I'm grossed out by 2 guys kissing, and knowing Darren Criss is straight, I still think their relationship is adorable. Lol. I mean, I wish I was Kurt. With a guy like Blaine, I will just melt away so easily. Haizz. And yeah, I love how Finn smiled when he understood Rachel's song. I wish I have those kind of moments. LOL. But all these are so not realistic. It will never happen. Maybe someday, it will, hopefully. But just not now. Haizz. Okay, whatever. I met up with Shereen and Jelina 2 days ago! Awesome kay, watched Red Riding Hood. I m

It's been a few weeks since I'm gone. Nobody cares...-.- So, what's new? School. Oh, I'm getting really tired nowadays. All I want to do is sleep like a pig. In lectures, break time, at home. And the subjects are getting tougher. Especially Chemistry because the lecturer just go "zoomzoomzoom" in monotone! Makes me sleepy and bored, trying very hard to listen to his explaination. And we had road run last Friday. Oh yeah, my PE teacher ade us run 2.4km in the morning. She said she wouldn't do that but she still did it in the end. ): Anyway back to road run, walked with Atq, Basy and Jnh. Halima ran to get the 50th position ! LIKE AWESOME RIGHT! Stayed back after the run walk to wait for Atq. Ended up leaving the school at 8.30pm. So today, went for Pantun instead of the H2 Malay talk. Met Nadiah! :DDDD So the pantun thing was alright. Fun, but contradicting. Learning the way to make a pantun from 3 different perspective is confusing. -.-! Next week is the

Hey! It's been such a long time since I last blogged right? Lol. Ever since school started I've either been busy or lazy! :D So, last stop was the orientation camp. Which was AWESOME! Though, something happened in between and yeah. But I still could bond with the class! Yeah! And so two days of camp. Home on birthday eve! Lol. School started at 9am on 9 Feb! A guy almost wanted to share cab with me as it was our first lesson and we were gonna be late. But it didn't happen. Hahah! CT time in class. Then 11S13 sang a birthday song for me! Like so sweet~ :D Thne had recess with Jannah and Aishah. Aishah didn't give me her hug ): LOL! Sebok je cari orang lain...:P Then nothing else happened after that. Yeap. Thursday was the day of real lessons. Yadayadayada. I almost died for PE on Friday! HAHAH! 4 rounds makes me -_- The class celebrated Florence and my birthday! Both on the 9th with hers in January. Jnh also gave me a beary pooh present! And Ami came down to school to pa

HELLO! Okay, so HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR! It marks the end of MGs today. Next week have to be grouped into class already. And I'm in 11S13. So I really had fun with MG16 for the past 3 days. Especially with the Husband&Wife game. It's so exciting, you just can't expect when to run. And something very hilarious happened during the game with MG12. Seriously, epic! Cheers and dance made orientation fun too! Though, I've forgotten some of the steps now. 2 songs with a lot of unrepeated steps! Tough. Then, before we went for the concert, had HTHT with MG16. Lol. Concert was alright. The teachers are .. supportive? They created their MV, danced for the students Pioneers. Hahah, I'm a PIONEER ! K, whatever. Aww, I can't meet my girlfriends this holiday. So disappointing, I couldn't go. ): And lessons in PJC for us begins on 9 Feb. *Please don't make me moody! Please don't ruin my mood!* Yep, okay, that's it. Because it's 3.45am in the morning. I

3rd day of orientation. Orientation was fun! Learnt cheers and mass dance! Woo, crazy! Then received a message about getting a place in H2 Malay. So met up with the other girls and meet the teacher. He make me regret my choice. He make me feel so damn depressed. I don't even know if I'm making the right choice. ): F. Ruin my mood. Patah semangat aku. What are you trying to do seriously? D:

Hello! So internal FAC just ended. Super tiring! I want to go and sleep now but I feel like I must blog first. So, came around 9.40am, looked around for ShY but she was nowhere to be found. So went into SJ room to help. Moved here and there. Slacked and changed. Eventually the whole event started. The walkietalkie that home nursing got was so suay. The battery died on us. So we used phone instead. Ahh, technologies.. Home nursing started a bit late. But I guess, everything was smoothly done? Hahah, need to help in clearing up plus video taking. It felt weird to be there. My heart was really racing fast due to excitement. Hahah. After ended, clear up. Helped in serving refreshments. Then, prize presentation! What happens next? NC1 got best in home nursing! I was so damn proud of them that I cheered loudly alone. Lol. Of course, seeing everyone at least got something for the team makes me happy too! Even though there's exception. :P Had meeting after that. Shifted everything back to

HELLO! Posting results out today. And at 7.20 am, I was informed that I will be going to PJC . At first I was quite disappointed. It lasted about an hour or so. But, I'm alright with this result now. From my HML class, there are 7 out of 18 being posted to PJC. Like woah. Have been refraining myself to go to JJC website. Haaaaa! Oh well, trying to choose subject combination. I don't know, I don't know. I want to take Malay and Literature. But, I already have enough H2 subjects. Which are important for other courses. I don't know, I don't know. Wait, if I want to become an architect, I have to take Physics. If I want to be involved in medication and stuff, Chemistry is needed. Economics help me to know about the world career and stuff. Maths is just so super important. So, I shouldn't take Malay anymore? :/ Just wait for tomorrow aye? Gonna go to school later. I mean Kranji. #Last day of waking up late. -though, I have to wake up early these few days to send Lydy

Hey, I spent a whole day at my bro's house today. Got to play with the babies and I'm so damn glad I've made the right choice to be out of house the whole day! Know why? BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND IT IN MY HOUSE ALREADY! It's no longer because of jealousy. It's more than that. This kid is too much already! She even say she want to be on wheelchair when she's perfectly fine! Bloody shit lah! And now my mum is like under some kind of her spell. Freaking irritating like shit! I'm so bloody freaking pissed off with her! Maybe it's in my family's blood that we all have this anger in us. She even caused me to shout at the top of my lungs. Her cries are mostly fake and she over reacts. Like swipe in the eye, even if it hurts, it's not that painful. But she, she shriek and cried. It was as if she could bring the whole house down! IRRITATING *deep breaths* Okay, thank you blog. The only place I could rant to. (: Please give me the strengh to be patient wit

Hey. Let's talk about yesterday before I rant. So yesterday, went for training. Blablabla, training was as usual. Went home and played with Aqilah. She talked to me, ahh, cheers me up! She went home awhile later and we all prepared to go Johor. Met Aniyah and off to Johor. Eat, eat. Realised I have this toilet phobia. I don't like going toilet elsewhere other than my house toilets. :P Next, went pandan. Bro bought me a bag. (: Eldest brother got me a watch, youngest brother got me a bag. Now just need to go out with my middle brother to get a ....pair of shoes? :P Reached home around 3am then off to sleep. Now, rant time. I have a little sister now. Well, her mum passed away. So we take care of her, since her father needs to go to work. I'm damn irritated please. I'm not used to not being the youngest child in this house. Now she's calling my mum like what we call our mum. I just feel like crying ah. I keep telling myself, she's partly an orphan so I cannot trea

HELLO!!!!!! I've hit the 1000th post! So this is the 1st after 1000th post! Yay, I don't know why I'm happy with the 1000th post. It's not an achievement. Yet, it took me 5 years to make it to 1000th. SO WHOOPWHOOP! And yesterday, my sister and I massaged our mum! It was so freaking hilarious! One of those loved moments. (Y) Oh, I meant yesterday's yesterday. LOL! So yesterday was Lydya's first day of school. After we fetched her, we fetched Aniyah. Then went to IMM. Lastly, home! :D

Hey, and I'm back to blog again. I was tired, and I still am. Just that I'm so stubborn that I don't want to sleep. Feel like I must finish some business first. :/ Hahah, I have nothing to do actually. Went bloghopping. Yeah, I'm jealous of their wonderful English. They could have it written so perfectly. Amazingly, intriguing. And mine? Just "SUCKS TO THE CORE". Yeahyeah, nobody reads this so? Haizz, screw insecurities. D: Okay, don't be sad because I'm awesome. Everybody's awesome! Just need to believe! And yes, I really can't wait for 29th. and 4 Feb. Plus 5 Feb. Hopefully. Jangan buat stress sudah! (: Oh yeah, 27th. School starts. They will tell us what to bring right? :/ Why our plans changed? All went down to the drain. Oh well. Now, I'm sleepy. :O

Hello! I went back to SAPS today with family. Wanted to get Lydya to school there. The security didn't let all of us in but we sneak inside. :O She don't even know who's the Principal. -.- So, when I went there, the kids were having recess. What's with the Prefect school crest ironed on the PE shirt? And with random kids coming into the General Office? Hahah, I miss that school. Though, I'm somehow glad to be out! If not my PE shirt would need that crest, not nice! :B Oh yeah, a girl went up to my mum and said, " Cikgu, dah lama tak jumpa cikgu! " (Teacher, I haven't seen you in a long time!) LOL! My mum never became a school teacher nor those she look like any of the teacher in that school. So cute! Then went to Hong Kah since SAPS got 20 kids waiting for their spot in that school. Recess just ended for them. Aww, my sister's student came running to her to hug her. So sweet, like daughter meets mother. And there was a boy on wheelchair. He kept lo

How ironic. My mum don't let my sister and I watch Channel 8. Now she's watching it. Hahah. Anyway, watching Oh Yeah! Waiting for the 13th episode to be out. :O I love these skits from Oh Yeah! :D And yay! Aniyah and Aqilah coming tomorrow. I hope no change of plans! :D