Live your life, ♥

Imagine this is a vlog. Hahahah. Okay crap. So, 2012 is finally coming to an end and in 1 hour time, we'll be in 2013! Well, 2012 has been quite a year. It started off okay, then it went to being bad, after that it was great, then it was back to okay and bad before it became quite awesome! Heheh. I shall not talk about my family because throughout, my family has been the back bone of my happiness. Understanding me, with each of my siblings giving me the "talk". Hahaha. To list down what I appreciate is too much. Hehs, so top 3 of this year.. So firstly, PISSYCATDOLLS So, we actually got closer since the Beijing trip. Hahah, thank you girls for helping me get through Malay class and our motivating times in whatsapp hahahah. They are all crazy, I tell you. And it's like whenever I'm with them, I'll just smile like one idiot even when they are not saying anything! Alhamdulillah for friends like this, through emotional times, through cr

And so after 365 days, we've finally reached the eve of the new year. Before I wrap up the year, let's reminisce on the past few days of Dec. So I've really and truly enjoyed my post As. Hahaha. Well, as soon as the December started, I was off for a 3 days DAY camp. Then, I had my prom at the the same place, wearing the same thing, and the only difference was the company I was with. LOL. The next day, I went out with my S13 clique before they all got busy. (no photo :[ ) Plus, ZPN. And you already knew that. So the week after, I went to Krabi for my holiday! It was so freaking awesome! Loved the service there and all of them were so polite to us! Snorkeling, caving, boat being towed, riding the elephant. I love Krabi seriously! And I will never forget this, but I was chased by a two dogs! The stupid thing was, I ran. And that's why the dogs chased me and I almost got bitten. Shouting "HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE~~~!" Nasib ta

It's amazing how maybe this is what I feel. My insecurities. Alike.

I don't know why I'm getting emotional right now (Okay, I'm always emotional and sensitive and cries a lot etc.) but it's really weird that all I want to do is to cry and let all these emotions inside of me go away. When I'm feeling like this, it was because I was stressed, I missed some people too much or it's about some guy who I had a crush on and I'm seeing him flirting the girl he likes. Now, I don't think I'm feeling that but probably, the situation is still the same? Because this involves another friend who's going through the emotions I felt when I saw the guy I'm crushing on having fun with another girl. And really, all I want is to help her but I don't know how. Well, I'm kind of stuck in the middle because I know the other girl and all I'm afraid of is that the other girl feels the same way too for the guy then what am I supposed to do? All hail love triangle please for bringing problems to our lives~

Today, I came across a thread as I searching for answers to "What will I do after this if I don't get into local uni?" This lady had ACC, not sure for the H1 subject, but an E for GP. Instead of giving constructive advices, the replies she got was "YOU SHOULD HAVE PLANNED" , "WHATEVER YOUR LIFE IS, YOU FAILED TO PLAN" And that had me thinking, who, really really planned their life? I mean sure some people (very oddly) work towards their goal in life. But for most of us, we don't have a plan. Maybe it's just me, I'm the type who goes with the flow. I never knew what I wanted to be, I mean since young (till now actually) all I want is to perform. Knowing that can't happen for me, I thought maybe I could just be a teacher. Then, when I was Sec 3, I observed how we all had night study and how our teachers have to stay back for us, some didn't even get married, and I realised, that's not what I want to be! And I don'

So, I'm really sleepy now. Yet, before I forget everything about this week, I thought maybe I should blog about it. Well, I've been having such an awesome and hectic week post A's. From Monday till Wednesday, I went for KSJ Annual Training Camp. It felt great to be back! I thought I was over SJAB, that I didn't want to help out anymore. Yet, when I was there, somehow I found the reason why I've been staying. It's because of the friends I've made and how eventually, when we're working towards the same goal, we're like a family. It may sound a little cliche and maybe fake but in all honesty, this is how I really feel. When I came back, to see how we all want to win and how we, as seniors, see there are things we should do to shape the juniors, I fell in love with KSJ again. There are many things we have to do, many efforts we have to put in, and just like old times, I'm willing to commit once again. I may get backlashed by my family.