Sometimes I don't get it, why am I getting very emotional. So many things are happening everyday to everyone. May He grant my wishes to give me the strength and ease this heart.
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Que Sera Sera
Lately, I've been losing sleep, dreaming about the things that we could be. I don't know what has been bothering me lately. I'm constantly in a sudden state of sorrow? It's like, one moment I'm just enjoying life and then suddenly I'm thinking about whatever thoughts that makes me feel sad. Well to be honest, this is largely caused by watching full series of Malay romantic comedies. First was Sebenarnya Saya Isteri Dia, then it was Ku Cinta Kau Seorang and the latest one, which I spent the whole of yesterday watching was Love You Mr Arrogant. All of these stories mentioned above goes something like: both boy and girl were forced into marriage or relationship and they found a way to love each other even though they hated each other initially. And I'm just like sigh, with my sister getting married soon and my brothers are all married and me? I should just focus on school first lah okay...
I don't know. Was it not supposed to hurt? Was it not directed to me? I know it's the truth. But you shouldn't find it a need to tell other people? People you don't even know. Nobody even asked about me? And if they do, all you could say is that I'm taking this right now. There's no need to tell them a story. There's no need to tell them I was desperate. Yes, I'm desperate. Desperate to make you proud of me. And it's not working is it? But can't you see, I'm trying? I don't even want this piece of cert, but I'm doing this so that some day I could pay you back. Can't you see? I'm sorry if I couldn't make it to NUS. I should have been able to. Sorry I was such a disappointment.
Alhamdulillah, it's Ramadhan again. I'm not sure if I'm getting older and finally understood more about Islam or the world is just turning to a more beautiful place where Muslims know the importance of Ramadhan in Islam! (Alhamdulillah for the latter too if that's the case!) This year feels different. The fact that it rained so heavily in the morning, knowing it's our first day of fasting and that rain means the doors of mercy are opened, it really brought in the positive vibes for Ramadhan this year. And insyaAllah, I hope to benefit more from Ramadhan this year. Amin. May you have a blessed Ramadhan too.
Finally Can Be More Than Just A Dream
I'm seriously itching to reopen my twitter account just because I want to be able to share how I feel at an instance. When I'm having a lot of feelings that need me to let it out, it's usually because I think I'm in love. No. I'm not in love. But I may have fallen for someone (and just like a few weeks ago, I was liking somebody else because he suddenly appeared in dream twice). I mean like what kind of a girl am I right now jezzzzz! And all these signs, all this falling just makes me impatient. Like is he the one or is it him? Haizz. Another day, another dream wasted on you. Anyway, I've been gone for awhile now. A lot has happened, believe me! Firstly, I turned 20 and had a very memorable celebrations with Pissy, Ami and DAHINAF! And I'm really thankful for all of them, and my family who were all present to celebrate my birthday with me, the wishes from my friends and everything. Then I went to Seoul around April with my sister and Ka...
I'm Kinda Over Getting Told To Throw My Hands Up In The Air
I have no idea what to do with my life now. Should I take psychology? I mean if I could get in. Looking at the courses these private unis offer, I'm only interested in Psychology, Mass Comm and yeah, that's about it. I'm not interested in IT, I mean maybe I am but I don't think I can do it. What should I do? Bachelor in SIM or Advance diploma then bachelor in MDIS? They don't even have honours... My god, I'm so confused. And and and it's so pricey. Watching #MPGIS and I want to curse so badly. Will update on my life soon. Too many things happened. Great things!:)