I just want to post this before it's over.

Turning 26 is crazy.
Suddenly I feel old, all those memories of the past are useless, all those achievements last year were worthless. Birthday didn't feel so good anymore.

It's like I'm just accepting the face that I'm a little older than I was before.
And like, I don't know, unmotivated towards life.

Sometimes I wonder if it's because of the things that happened last year or it's just a burn out stage where I'm taking a break before charging full speed ahead.

Maybe it's because my student life is ending and my real adult life is fast approaching and I haven't really gotten all the things I thought I would do before going to the working world.

Maybe I'm just scared that I have reached the peak and there's no more check points after this?

I know this is untrue but man, I wish I felt differently.





But don't get me wrong. I'm still very much contented and thankful and grateful for the life I've had till now.
Today was extremely beautiful.

After the past warm weather, it rained today.
He blessed us with this cooling weather and a chance for us to seek His forgiveness.

My family all came down to celebrate my birthday and I'm so touched that for the very little I did for this family, they continuously shower me with full care, love and protection.

And if they only know me best, one of my favourite things are family gathering, my nephews and nieces and seeing my family pray and play together.

And to the friends that prayed for me, I could only repay you with lots of love from the bottom of my heart. He blessed me with lots of them and I'm so lucky to have them.

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