Live your life, ♥

As my usual tradition at the last few hours of the end of year, I tend to write about the year... So, 2014 Like every year, I wonder where the heck did the year disappeared to HAHAH! Well, for a start, it's been a year since I passed my driving! Which means, no need for P-plate anymore, though I would still want to use it because I'm not really a safe driver and I'm still scared of making turns. Second thing, all my siblings are married now. Hahah, who knew that in a year I could get two sibling-in-laws huh? It's still surreal that just in a blink, my eldest brother and my sister is somebody's husband and wife. (While I'm still not attached so I'm all alone HAHAHA) I went to Korea this year with my sister and her bestfriend, Kak Shahira! Amazing experience indeed! I really miss Everland cos of the fireworks! And I miss Seoul cos of their ice creams and churros! Ahhhh, really want to go back soon! I also went to Phuket with the family whic...

"do you ever just smell an old perfume, or hear an old song, or pass an old hangout spot and kinda break inside for a couple minutes?" I've been wanting to post something for the longest time, but whenever I get in the mood to do a write up, I'll end up reading other people's blog/tumblr and losing my mood to post. That mood of wanting to share. My. Feelings. That. Are. Mostly. Very. Emotional. For. No. Reason. Now that my mood is all set up in the right path, (with my low-spirited playlist that's all about unrequited love)(and I wonder why I always gets emotional at night with such playlist...) First up, *drum roll* SHUFIDAHKAHWIN! Yes, my sister is married. Alhamdulillah, albeit the little hiccup and suspense by the catering service on the Saturday, and the tiring end to clean up on the Sunday, everything went well. (SHOULD AVOID: SHAIK SABRI for his poor handling of situation when lodged a complain like as if he's the king, and all he know ...

Sometimes I don't get it, why am I getting very emotional. So many things are happening everyday to everyone. May He grant my wishes to give me the strength and ease this heart.

How about you pity me first?

Lately, I've been losing sleep, dreaming about the things that we could be. I don't know what has been bothering me lately. I'm constantly in a sudden state of sorrow? It's like, one moment I'm just enjoying life and then suddenly I'm thinking about whatever thoughts that makes me feel sad. Well to be honest, this is largely caused by watching full series of Malay romantic comedies. First was Sebenarnya Saya Isteri Dia, then it was Ku Cinta Kau Seorang and the latest one, which I spent the whole of yesterday watching was Love You Mr Arrogant. All of these stories mentioned above goes something like: both boy and girl were forced into marriage or relationship and they found a way to love each other even though they hated each other initially. And I'm just like sigh, with my sister getting married soon and my brothers are all married and me? I should just focus on school first lah okay...

I don't know. Was it not supposed to hurt? Was it not directed to me? I know it's the truth. But you shouldn't find it a need to tell other people? People you don't even know. Nobody even asked about me? And if they do, all you could say is that I'm taking this right now. There's no need to tell them a story. There's no need to tell them I was desperate. Yes, I'm desperate. Desperate to make you proud of me. And it's not working is it? But can't you see, I'm trying? I don't even want this piece of cert, but I'm doing this so that some day I could pay you back. Can't you see? I'm sorry if I couldn't make it to NUS. I should have been able to. Sorry I was such a disappointment.

Alhamdulillah, it's Ramadhan again. I'm not sure if I'm getting older and finally understood more about Islam or the world is just turning to a more beautiful place where Muslims know the importance of Ramadhan in Islam! (Alhamdulillah for the latter too if that's the case!) This year feels different. The fact that it rained so heavily in the morning, knowing it's our first day of fasting and that rain means the doors of mercy are opened, it really brought in the positive vibes for Ramadhan this year. And insyaAllah, I hope to benefit more from Ramadhan this year. Amin. May you have a blessed Ramadhan too.