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Trying my best to forget about tomorrow. And, right now, it's not doing very well. My heart is beating fast. It's getting harder and harder to breathe. My thoughts are swirling all over the place. It's tomorrow. That phase in life where things can change. Anything could happen. Another pitstop that change the course of your ideal life. Thinking about all the "What if"s and "where do I go from there". Maybe, I felt this way before, it just didn't matter as much as it does this time. All I know is that I could go somewhere or nowhere at all. And it would suck so much for the latter. Repeat? I don't know. But again, if things go wrong, what else can I do? I just hope, for the very last time, some miracle could happen and I can get into a local uni, doesn't matter what course, just some place in a local uni. Haizz. Totally regretted my 2 years. But it's too late. Leave it all to fate.

SOOOOOOO, Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to Najihah, happy birthday to me! And so, it's the 9th of Feb. Apparently ever since December ended, I've been looking forward to this day. I don't know why I thought it would be different. Cos, it was on a Saturday, it was Chinese New Year eve and it's my birthday. HAHAHA so it was a normal day. Only that I get to spend time helping my parents do groceries shopping (plus I got smoothie) and then spent other hours waiting for something to happen and in the end, celebrate with my family at home! My sister bake me cakes ahhhhhh love the green and the winnie the pooh and all~~~~~ And know what, even though I expected more during the day and I was waiting for surprises that never happened, ending the day with my family was the best part of the day! Really! And today, I don't know if it's the moodswing or what but whenever somebody wished me and say something sweet, I

So welcome to February. Weird thing is, it's already 5th February and you know what's coming at the end of this week..... Yes! CHINESE NEW YEAR! Hahahaha. I'm more excited for CNY eve anyway ;) Anyway, took half day today so that I could go back to school to help out. Should have just went from 11 to 2 because I totally wasted my time. So many screw ups and I'm just trying my best to stay patient with the people and the system. And I finally got to talk to them, pleading to see improvements in the cadets when training resumes. I hope there would be real improvements. Plus, surprise surprise, Ms Lim Leck Lee still remembers me oh god, she smiled at me! Hahaha I mean how can she forget the stubborn girl who won't come to meet her and do her tys unless forced right....:x So after that was back to work and planning something the Basy and Diyanah. I hope this is the right decision and we'll get approved. ANYWAY, HAPPY BIR