Like Venus And Mars

Taking a long break before getting back to Physics.
Suddenly I feel so scared again.
What if I fail again this time round?
What if I get a score of 30 or even worse, 36 and more.
Killing myself here man.

Need need to pass Physics.
I wanted to meet her today but I changed my mind.
I feel so god damn guilty.
It's the shitty feeling inside that just burn me bit by bit.
That feeling of fear.
I hate that feeling.

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