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Have you ever just sat down, with your knees to your chest, staring into blank space and feel like you either went back in time or move forward to the future? I don't know. Maybe because of the not getting into uni thing this year that I'm just constantly trying to find what I want in my future. Because they say if you don't what you want, how are you going motivate yourself to get what you want because you don't know what you want so how could you get motivated to get something you don't know? That was a repeated statement hahah. I always believe I'm the type of person who goes with the flow. Because I can't get what I want, probably because (no, I mean absolutely because) I don't work hard enough. But somehow, I found a goal. And that is to repay my parents and my siblings. And today, I thought of how much my dad paid for me... From my daily allowances to which became monthly and I haven't include the times I needed extra money becaus...

I wish the sound of your name would be just a sound. That it wouldn't trigger any feelings that still lingers around. That it wouldn't make me wish for anything more. But like a friend said in 2008, when you like someone, no matter what happens, there's still 1% of you that still have feelings for them. And I hope this isn't true. I hope I can soon move on, and meeting you won't give that awkward feeling. And getting a text from you wouldn't mean anything than just a text. . . . . . . . My whole life, when I write about something that's bothering me, it's, without a doubt, would be about guys I'm crushing on. Sian, and I'm already 19. When will I grow up... And soon, I will be 20 and 21 and 22 and then 23... I need to start giving love to people that give me love. But it's funny isn't it? We always give our love to somebody who don't give a damn about us. We always get it wrong, but it's tough. Co...

Yes, so the latest news in Singapore, our PSI has reached record breaking news!!! And congrats to us, we've even hit 400 or some said 666 because that was the 3-hour average. Yet, this was nothing to be joked about. Every concerned people in Singapore made their purchase of the face masks, it was getting harder to breathe, the smell of smoke, outdoors and indoors, it was at point where some Singaporeans are getting crazy worried, especially for people with asthma. Alhamdulillah, the PSI has decreased to 143, still unhealthy but at least much healthier than what we had before. Hopefully, it will get back to the healthy range because I really want to go swimming next week! And I know Singaporeans love to complain more than anything else, but to complain about the Singapore's government was unacceptable. Could you imagine the heavy load of everyone's hope on the government? I mean it is their job but they tried everything they could to talk to the Indonesia's...

Hello! So I'm currently at Darwin transit airport. I'm really so glad that there's (FREE) internet here. Couldn't get any free internet in Cairns even though they say it's wi-fi? Anyway, it's been great in Australia. Cold everyday like even when it's hot. But I didn't get to see my koala or kangaroo. Haizz, really wanted to go kuranda but sigh, it's okay. We went for a hike instead to see Mossman Gorge. Beautiful! But it was awkward for me because my brother rent a car and then invited his friends... all they talk about was the IRONMAN race. HAHA. Speaking of IRONMAN, I'm really proud of my brother who managed to pass his friends even though he was the last few to get out of the water for the swim. Completing everything in 14hours. That must be crazy. All of them ironmen and ironwomen are crazy! Okay, so for the last event of Cairns was snorkeling in the Great Barrier Reef! Hated the ride to there because I vomited 3 tim...

Hiiiiii, It's been awhile and guess what? I'm blogging from AUSTRALIA RIGHT NOW! Ohh, I love it here. The weather's always cold even when the sun is scorching hot. Besides the always rainy weather, everything's fine here mate! It's only been 2 days. I really wanted to actually use whatsapp but seems like....hmm. I don't know how to use the wifi here. Like we have to but this smart timer card to use the internet. Maybe I should try but. Okay I only have twenty minutes left. Every 30 minutes is SGD $2. Hahahaha, I don't know what I'm talking about. I'm just excited. I thought the people here were gonna be rude and all that. Those are just lies. The people here are friendly and so lovely. Gonna be here for another 6 days. Then I'm back to Singapore. :( Just don't like the weather there. Other than that it's fine cos it's expensive here. Crazy expensive. Food cost like $10, difficult to find any cost below t...