I Wanted Words But All I Heard Was Nothing

There are so many questions in my head right now, I think I should ask.fm myself ha ha ha.

Being in this adolescent life sucks so bad because I really don't know what I want or what I really need to do.

I have a strong feeling that I won't get a place in uni because if I did, I would actually have gotten some sort of interview and the fact that one week has already passed and I'm still not shortlisted, it's the end.

So in my mind, I'm wondering if I should retake A's or should I just go for SIM.
The clock is ticking and I really need to do things fast.
I could retake but the chance of me getting better or at least the same result is slim.
It was by luck that I actually passed my Chemistry and GP so what if I don't this time?
I don't want to waste money or time in doing something that will get me back to where I am.

But then again, I could just apply and if things change, just don't pay and my application is considered null.

Somehow, I know what I want to do.
But the thing is, am I making the right choice?

Appeals will take place in May.
So I thought that if I don't get in, I should try to appeal first.
And if that fails, I would go get a job, wait till I'm 21 and apply for Uni-SIM.
But then again, nothing is that easy.

So apparently, to retake is my back-up plan.
And if I want to retake now, it's only because my spa marks could be brought forward.
Omg, I'm so confused.







There are so many teenadult things I must do.
Who knew your turning point in life could be so difficult.
So many possibilities. So many options. So many outcomes.
Hmm, come what may.

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