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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAI YI LING! I've said everything in the card :D Yesterday was the greatest laughable moments of HML class. Shh! Secret :D Yeah, I forgot. Anyway, today. Boring again. It was just alright actually. Got to go. If not, I'm gonna have to listen to another of Mak's lecture. ): Hahahah. Don't know what I should believe in. Should I stay or should I go?

Been doing Mole Concept for the past 2 hours. Gahhs, 5 more pages to go! That's like 40 plus questions to go! Yay! Today is really, boring . 2 IPs in a day. Grr, Geography is driving me nuts! So much to memorise. I have like a week left. Not inclusive of the other subjects I have to squeeze in my head. I need a larger brain memory system. :D Today, I saw RIDZWAN! Hahah, he changed, like duhhhh! Oh my, bring lots of memories all the way back to P1. Anyway, YILING'S Birthday is tomorrow! :D Bye! It's time to miss people. Friends, friends, friends?

Hahah. Used to want to get in Double Humans. Almost killed myself lah. Good thing I didn't. Geography and Social Studies already killed me! Roar! Oh no! 2.4km run is coming this TUESDAY! Double ass next Monday! ):

If only it could be longer. The best dream I had. Gosh, my life is full of dreams. Ah, hatiku tak tenteram! Tak betul. Gila.

Today was the first exam for mid-year. I can say, essay not well done. My mind totally failed me. What a disappointment! Lol. Paper 2, alright. Doable. Not even one peribahasa from the Sec 3 list. Like "what the heaven?!", as Shirin says it. So, thank you. Even so it was an easy paper, now I don't feel confident. Hahah. Who knows how he marks it make a total difference.. Then thought of eating with them. Just realised I had to be home before 3pm. Reached home. Then off to Tampines with Kakak. Met someone new, Syairah. Woots! :D Aww. White and pink. Sad, no green ): White, Yellow, Pink. Pretty. Yeah, tired now. Going to sleep early today. YAY! Tomorrow, studyyyyyy! Mid-year already arrived, you! No more fooling around. Hahah. Term 3 can fool around again. (: Then End-Of-Year. *DENGDENGDENG* Oh gosh, so fast. ): Lol. Oh yeah, yesterday went to Old Folks Home opposite SAPS. Brought back old memories of school! Hehs. Then played ball and throw with them. Farhana so cute, sup...

I'm currently bored. Homework. Friday is coming soon. ): Peribahasa. Oh gosh.

Hello! Today was pretty much okay. Actually, forgotten a lot that happened. Just that I thought I saw a Chinese. Actually he was a malay. Oh gosh! :O Kay, no big deal. Then went to IMM. Like so bored. Walked and walked around. Should I? Blearghs. Anyway, bored now. Gotta do homework! (:

Today was the Home Nursing Exam for me, RT, NJ, and the sec 2s girls. So first was to study then it was theory. *BLANK* Then since I was paired with TiEn,  my name was first on list,  so we were first to go.. Shall not talk about what happened inside. Then out, bored. Waited for other couples to come out. After that, TiEn wanted to do footdrill. Since Shing and Azimah was already out,.... TEAM TRAINING! Gosh, it was so fun. So we practiced a few drills and it landed on the right foot but after a veryyyyy long time when the command had been said. Lols. Team bonding, YAY! Then helped logistics and ate lunch with cucuku after. Hehs. Met sister. Felt sleepy so went to JP alone. She wanted to go home and all. At JP, bought stuff I looked for. Then saw KA! Like omg, he recognized me actually. :D Anyway, after that I went home. And here I am now! Oh, homework time ):

TODAY WAS GREAT. Yeah, the best day of the week. Oh gosh, must my family always ruin it for me? Anyway, today walked to school with Nisa, Ami and Sab. I missed it a lot. Those sarcastic conversation and all. Then P.E. played CB. ShiYing sprained her ankle. My very first classmate casualty. Hees. Geography. Oopsie. English. Paid attention. Recess. Yay! Maths. Awesome as ever. MrLim acted so weirdly and made us laugh. Like how he 'flew' to the back of the class to see what V was doing. Hahah! After school, stayed back to practice home nursing. Scary lah ): Tomorrow, have to pass it! :D Yay! No course tomorrow! It's been pushed to next Friday. Which is after my MTL exam. Oh gosh! But great, last lesson! Woohoo! At times, I wonder why you do that. Just like 2 person of 1. Split personality and I don't know. But you make my day better everytime we smile.

Today was slightly better I guess. Stomach cramp. Visited the toilet 3 times just before 7am. Supposed to be studying now. Geography test tomorrow, start with nothing yet. Today stayed back for 2nd re-test. Finally, full marks! Hahah. Thanks YiLing and ShiYing. Then went to be 'extra' with the SJ. This ex-Kranjian, Elson, I think, was promoting his album. So he gave his CD album and also took photo with us. RT was jealous with his super clean skin! Lol. Nurul asked me to stay back longer. But I left without her, sorry, tired ah. &the stomach making problem some more. Nenek's stomach is full of shit. HAHAH. What the hell lah! Go off the radio then walk away. I want listen right! See lah, blood rising just for this. I'm in need for a serious anger management. Oh, I'm bloody irritated now. This week totally sucks to the max. GARHS!!!!!!!!

Johnny: ______ YiLing: Then you quit lor! Shaufy and Johnny: We're not talking about our CCA sucks, it's the school that sucks. Shaufy: Eh, YiLing, you know why I wear this school shirt or not?.... BECAUSE IF NOT I'LL BE NAKED! and we burst out laughing. LOL! Anyway, today was no different. Came home and Mak was out. Nobody was home. Lonely made me sad again. Hahah. Glad Mak is home!

Today was really horrible. In the morning, my stomach was already in pain. As I reached school, I felt the guilt so I was angry at myself. Then Cikgu out of nothing, need to mess with my emotion. Pissed. 3D didn't even made that much noise. His question: Can you deny that nobody talked? Bloody cunning idiot. Tell me which class had everybody's mouth shut? NONE! It was not even our class. It was the others, not 3D! The girls at the back didn't even make a sound. You think it's fair? I was already super pissed at everything that happened. At least MrLim's class cheered me up. I love MrLim. Although he may be irritating at times, he never fails to make me laugh. P.E. was great too. It's warmer today, though. As for recess, YiLing and I went to that spot to do homework. We got entertained by the guitar class strumming " Secret Valentine ". Back to class. It was much better after I wrote things down. Only left with 2 people. Though, it's still awkward....

Today was our SL. A few people got dragged to come and play. It was alright. I don't know what I've created. It's a big mess now. I didn't want confrontation and confession to happen today. Well, it did somehow happened. Now I want to erase it. I didn't want them to know. I wanted the distant today. My heart pumped so fast, my stomach swirled and I get a slight headache whenever I see them. I was still, I don't know what's the right word. Angry? I know they don't know, and nobody knows why. But I guess, everything had to happen today. I feel horrible. Tomorrow? I am not sure. ): I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I...

So many photos to upload. Anyway, shall blog stuff I remember. Way back to last last Sunday. Went to Haflah. Had to help as "backstage crew". Lol, the people who pass the foods lah. Then at night, celebrated Kakak's birthday. Kakak was turning 20, Aniyah was going on 2. So there was 2 candles. Then on the next Tuesday, 31st March 2009, went to Pastamania for birthday dinner. Yummy, too many food. Hahah, seriously, full to the max. I know something great happened that week. Seemed to have forgotten it. But that Friday, SEC 3 HUMANITIES RACE! Tasneem, Amos, Esther and I were the representatives of 3D. Our facilitators were Yuri and Yue Feng. Amazing discovery, our jersey numbers were 7, 8, 9, 10 ! Went to Victoria Concert Hall, Clarke Quay, Little India, Chinatown and all around there. There's once at Clarke Quay, we walked one whole round just to find out that we were actually at the right place, just missed out. At Chinatown, Esther just asked the uncle if she can plu...

Alhamdulillah. My search party is over. Hahah. Now is the clean up party! Oh gosh, I've created a big mess here! Oh no, getting rings on eyes again. Also, decided to do a research on this guy. His name is Zainal Abidin Bin Ahmad . A.K.A. Za'ba. Coolsome. Better do an awesome job on this project. Still have a week to go(: Funny how his name is a combination of Ayah's and Cikgu's. Lols. Gonna cleancleanclean. Next, praypraypray. Then we can cheercheercheer. :D I don't feel like sleeping.

7 more hours for search party! Public duty tomorrow! Sports Day! Albatross getting at least 4th? Hope so. I wish today could repeat. Even though I didn't like how it was done, it was still so much of a great. (: Thanks for the consoles! It has been fine. Just that Mak gets lonely at home alone now. &we're still not used to see that nobody is at that sofa. Shall play and search later. :D ALBATROSS!

It feels different. It's more quieter than usual. Now, who will be my companion at night? Now, who can I look at when I'm thinking for the answers? When I do my homework, sometimes I'll do a solo act of something. Then I'll look at the sofa to see Nyai looking back. Now suddenly, that sofa at that corner of the house is empty. When it was empty, the reason used to be because she slept over at my uncle's. I know that within two days or so, she'll be back. Now that it is empty, she won't be back anymore. I remember when I was in kindergarten. Parents send me and Kakak to her house. Then while she sleeps, we'll play with the tape recorder. Acting like deejays or something. Nora and Nona . Then usually, I'll open the fridge carefully. So that she won't wake up to find me stealing bites from the cucumber. And her words to trick us into eating. " Last, last. Cepat, da last! " " Nanti nasi nangis. Makan cepat, da last ni! " Brother ...

I shall update about the interesting week I had. Seriously, it's a different week from any other week. But for now, my maternal grandmother just passed away at 1.30am today. Yes, I'm getting ready to cry a lot later, I guess. It's really hard to believe she's gone. Ever since I was 3, she took care of me. & now, I don't have anymore grandparent. We even had to feel her pulse. Never thought it will ever happen. Well, at least, almost everyone was here to be there when she went. How will it be from here? Happy Birthday Sufiana Safiena Binte Abdul Karim!