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Hey. Great news today. I got promoted. Meaning I will go to J2 next year. Sadly, I'm not so happy that I got promoted. Well, with the results I have, I won't be ready for A's next year~ And maybe I've prepared myself mentally that I will retain too much till it became numb when I knew I got promoted. Or maybe, because I just want to be there for them who didn't. Hmm, you know, it's difficult to cheer up another who didn't make it. It's like, to them, we can say it's fine and everything because we did make it. Hmm. It's just so sad. I really didn't deserve to get promoted. Seriously, I don't deserve it. But, I should be thankful. Just hoping my friends who didn't make it through won't give up. Hmm, I wish I could be with them. :/

): The jacket is not done yet. I'm so pissed. Just so disappointed. Well, they say that they could get it done by 16th, Then only started to tell me the problems they encounter when I sent them another email to ask about their progress. Just so URGHSSS! Totally no more mood. Everything is just taking its toll on me. Everything. Haizz. Today was supposed to be a good day. With PW over and done with finally. Hmm, the moment with my group mates was awesome. "This is the last thing you have to sign to end your contract with PW" Hahahaa~ I'm gonna miss being a pw rep. :/ And I'm prepared for the bad news tomorrow. But all I need is one good news to make it a whole lot better. :(

I'm supposed to be doing my I&R. There's a whole lot of things I need to settle before tomorrow. The CD for PW, the I&R(get it done and printed), the jackets, the souvenirs and t-shirts for SJ. Amidst this all, I'm still waiting even though I know I have to DO. Not WAIT. I think because I'm anxious for the jackets. I really hope it could be done by tomorrow so I can give it to the class on the 17th. Well, 17th is the last day for a full class. You know, if I could give it to them on the 17th, then it would be perfect. I mean, at 10.30 is the promo result. But from 9am to 10.30am, it's the camwhoring part of the day. So, if we could get the jacket then there's like so much reason to camwhore. Heheh. I'm really scared if they couldn't get it done by tomorrow night. :/ And omgosh, so much distraction right now~ Cut Amirah is on. I really need to get my I&R done :P ):

It's a really basic word and may not consist of any emotion. But if you want to believe how you want it to be, it's really like a dream come true. :P He's online now. And I feel like talking to him. Haizz. What if I'm like this nuisance to him. I mean, you know, those kind of people you just have to be nice to but you don't really want to entertain them. Sigh. And furthermore, I'm afraid. Maybe he'll just go "Get away from me" and stuff. Then, wouldn't it be awkward in school. D: But I really really really want to start a conversation. Hmm.

HEY! Saturday had been such an adventurous day for me! Okay, wait. Let's talk about 11.11.11 first. *SCREAMS* He replied my hello with a "hi"~ It was around 11+ so I assume it's 11.11pm. Hehehs. Oh so dreamy. But stupid me was already out of Facebook. Should have replied him. D: Anyway, back to Saturday. Morning was normal, followed parents to a wedding. Cute kendarats but they were from Myanmar. One even look like Irwansyah. Haizz. Lol. So wanted to send Kakak to school. And she asked us to go through this flooding lane. Went there and "BOOM!" car broke down. So we had to rush out in the midst of the flood, because we were afraid that the car would just explode. It was interesting but so damn scary. And watching the car being towed away, the feeling is similar to watching a dear one pass away. :'( Yeap, no car for a few weeks. After that, went home and rushed to meet Iffa and Diyanah. Watched " JELANAK JELUWEK

Dah dah, maximum point of craziness reached. Shit shit shit. Feeling like a stupid girl. Blablabla

Hello! I'm quite a happy girl today~ Well, that's basically because, MY OP IS OVER! :P:P:P:P What's left of PW is the I&R! Hahah. Omgosh, I think the presentation mode still hasn't run out. Because, as I type, I can hear myself presenting this to you. HAHAHAHAH! It's all kind of worth it, you know. I mean when you think back, and the feeling you get when you have completed the task like the WR and OP, all you feel is joy and nothing about the worst moment of PW. Those staying up late and all is a bliss. Yet, yesterday was horrible! Broke down twice because I was too tired and stressed out. Well, didn't sleep at all so I was awake for like the 22 hours or so. And I couldn't remember my script so I got stressed for screwing up so much. Plus, my teacher wasn't making things easier that she wanted to keep us till late night. Felt guilty that I kind of shouted at her though. Not getting enough rest, I knew I really needed it before

I'm this close to giving up. This close. I hate this. Everything. Is just. Back to depression. :(

Hello! I'm so freaking hungry now~ Family went out and didn't brought home food. Apparently, my mum is fasting today. Well, tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji! :D It's not much about celebrating. I mean, We used to celebrate it since my grandparents were still here. Now that I have no more grandparents, it's kind of a on-off thing. Like, the mood is not there but then when it comes to the day, I still want to celebrate it. How? Go to the mosque. That's the only way to get the raya mood up! :D Currently doing my pw. I mean, what else right? Editing videos. Supposed to have done it 2 days ago. But every time I just get started, I just don't have the motivation to go on. So I stop and sleep. Heheh. But I must get it done by today. Well, it's kind of due today. Lol. Now you know why. :P Haizz. Enough of getting distracted. Maybe one more peep at fb and then back to work~! Takecare~~~

That title is so fake and blearghs. Well, because I dream of a someone so that doesn't mean I have to go talk that someone or anything right. -.- Yaaa, I always tend to don't make sense. Exactly my point. *nods head* Anyway, I'm supposed to be doing my project video and a heart shape. Just so lazy and tired. Hmm, tomorrow? :/ Oh yeah. Should I buy a guitar or keyboard? I really want to be able to play either. And all I need is to buy the instrument. While keyboard is easy to learn and soothing, Learning how to play guitar is manageable too. Plus, you can carry a guitar around while a keyboard is usually to heavy and big to be brought around. So dumdumdum! GUITAR IT IS! Maybe after As then I will pursue with keyboards. (:

Hey. Same old story, every night. Just wish you could shut up. Stop stealing my father-daughter moment. ): Just want you to be gone. Really. You're ruining my life. My family life. And I'm left with nobody. :/ Sigh, my Loggie will cheer me up (: