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Heyyo! Selamat Hari Raya Aidifitri S3MUA! 1 Islamic month passed by so quickly. I couldn't even grasp the moment and the day to celebrate is here. Hmm, the house is still a bit messy. Friends will come on the 3rd day of raya. Noooo! Hahah. Okay, I want to seek forgiveness if I have written anything offensive in this blog. May you all have fun later and tomorrow and whenever. "Pakcik dan Makcik asyik bersembang hai duit raya lupa diberi" :P Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

Hello! I have put up the chatbox again! So, if you do drop by and by chance, read my post, tag me alright? Be it anonymous, nameless or with names, just write something there :D Read the old tags. I realised, I really miss my juniors! My NC1 kiddies especially. When the time comes, I'm so gonna have reunion with them. I'm thinking maybe, ET's birthday? Or after their Os, that's totally fine too :P I just hope for it to happen. (: Oh no, I've caught the runny nose. Those sore throat days were trying to warn me after all. But what could I do. I'm fated to have this flu now. Better now than later. Ramadhan is soon coming to an end. Just 2 more days and bid goodbye to Ramadhan, say hello to Syawal. And then, just pray hard that He will grant you the wish to meet Ramadhan again next year. And then, end it all with smiles and amen. (:

Hello! I'm so thankful and overjoyed! Firstly, my wishes came true! My brother is coming home for Raya! Even though he's going off for work on the 2nd day, he'll still be here on the 1st day! I can have my family photo with addition of Aqilah! I can't wait! Well, I'm not really close with my brothers. But I definitely don't like it if anyone was missing on the first day. I really love and appreciate family reunion. I feel the sense of belonging, the fun, and the most loved. (: Another wish of mine came true too. I'm just thankful and surprised that my wish was answered. (: Well, the house is almost done. Just left with my corner and the kuihs! Omgosh, all the parts of mine :/ Yes, my raya outings, I'm so excited! I hope Firzanah will come. It won't be a full circle without her ): But really, I'm so excited for raya now. Finally, I'm feeling the berkat of Ramadhan. The joy of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah. :...

Using my time wisely now to blog. Well, it's a remedy. I don't feel emotionally well. I've been feeling rather numb lately. Oh, numb is not the word. Numb means to feel nothing. Yet, I'm feeling something but I don't know what is it. It's painful. Just in between sad and anger. Maybe hurt? Sigh. What a joy. I'm so emo. I hate me. Contradicting isn't it? To love but to hate. To feel happy but feel the pain too. I'm unarmed, My world torn apart. I don't even know what happened. I'm staring at you and I don't know what to do. I'm staring into blank space hoping something would cheer me up. Nothing. I'm just not thankful enough. Sucker.

Hello! Well, for a change, let's not talk about today. Just that I came early to school today. Like 6.30am early just to continue some part of the decorations. I'm so proud of it I kept looking at it. Hahaha. Thick skinned. Anyways. For sure, today was not that much fun. I mean, I had fun with the riddles and all during the breaks. For the heart, I'm not that sure. Something was pretty wrong with you heart. Tell me soon yeah >: Yeah, perangai bebual seorang. :P So, I have GP remedial, have to hand in a newly drafted WR in the morning, Maths quiz tomorrow and then a mass tutorial and another standardized test. Plus, we have to hand in our donation card. Maybe, continue with the decorations? May Allah give me His blessings and guidance tomorrow. I have to be strong. I have the capabilty to overcome every challenges tomorrow. Yeah, go Naj, go! :D I know. I love myself too much. But if I don't, who will? (: Please d...

Hello! So I had a great and awesome weekend! Yesterday, had an early start with Mira, Haris, Diyanah and Iffa. Met up with them to go to Geylang! We were looking for Raya decorations for school. Hot and tiring! Hahah! We found what we were looking for and went on to look for seats. Slacked for about 5 minutes or so. Then I was off to HQ for my test. Ohmy, what a difficult one. Far from what I've expected. After that, slacked at Nicoll Highway mrt with Jannah, Ain and Rui Ting. Enjoying free aircon while we awaited the arrival of RT's friend. Great catch up with them (; Up next, met up with Aniyah, sister and bro-in-law. We went to the library till it was almost time to breakfast! Went home for breakfast. Next, went to the mosque. Can you believe it, Aniyah prayed with us. That's like 17 raka'at. (: Home after prayers and we watched Fear Itself. She fell asleep after that. That made her sleepover after a very very long time! :D Today, w...

When you want to fake your sickness but in the end making the sickness a reality. I feel lethargic now. Today is the first time I skipped school. Like seriously, I don't know why I told myself to do such a thing. Well, I had my reasons to skip school. First, I overslept thus I didn't want to start a late coming record. Second, I haven't done my homework hence don't want to risk myself from getting the whole class scolded by the ST. And since it's Friday, I had my reasons to come to school too! There's CCA today! I can't miss my cca even if it's for a day! (: Now that I'm in school, I feel so awkward. People I know gave me the shocked look that I'm here. And I have to explain to them why I missed school. D: The best thing? My mum don't even know she gave me the permission to skip school. Now, I'm gonna die. Shit man. :0 Had a great dinner just now. Like seriously, it was fun to disturb Firzanah with I. Hahahah...

Hello! Yesterday had been such a dead-zombie day for my group members and I. Well, we all were rushing through our wr the night before. Lack of sleep and full of frustration. Hayyu and Hanz were so sweet to motivate us. (: Well, pw lecture was enlightening. Lecture was conducted by Mr Sas and hence, it was "laughable" and enjoyable. Then our mood was brought down by GP. Hahah. -.- One of the highlight of the day was the PJ's first Got Talent Competition. Martian Trio was up first, making a good opening act for the competition. I was glad that it wasn't only me who thought they were awesome! And Haris ss-ness at the back was so fun to watch. Hahahaha! He was giving his wide smile at the back at almost every single second. Lol! The rest after were alright. Good but yeah. The crowd wasn't enthusiastic enough. Hahaha. The last performance by Marley Ramly was another awesome act! The perfect closing! When they danced to "Marry You"...

Hey! I'm in the library now. Having our break before GP. I don't really know what I'm feeling now. Izza told me about a boy who lose his mum a week ago. And then we started talking about death, depression and all. Well, I have been feeling sad and ridiculous these few days, and she told me something interesting. "When you are depressed, seek to Allah for help and open the Quran. He will lead you to the right way." I'm truly amazed. (: Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

So, I was sad earlier. I deleted my twitter on impulse and I'm still a little bummed out about that. ): It's like losing a love one. You'll miss the moments you've had. I guess, I'm missing out on a lot of stuff now but I shouldn't be sad. I'm actually quite happy! I saw Cik Odah and Cikgu Zaleha! I really could feel true joy and I know I almost wanted to scream out their name. I was already mouthing "CIKGU!" without a sound. Hahah! Well, that's one. Another reason why I'm happy is because I'll be meeting my friends this Wednesday! Especially when both Sher and Fida are free and the rest says they probably could make it, It's just like my dream came true. Sigh. (: Okay, I should get back to work after Isyak. PW baybehhh! :D Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

I love making myself sad. I don't know why. Someday, I'll be the boss. Just not anytime near now. Hahah. I've just deactivated my twitter account. I get mad irritated easily and that's just not right. Now, there's only you my dear blog. Just you. (: Deleting things in my life. Things I would never think of deleting. I just did. Don't worry. I still need you. I will never ever ever delete you. And if I ever lose you due to technology malfunction one day, I'll never forget you. I'll cry the whole night for you. I'll remember every single memories we shared together. I really love you blog. Thanks for always being there for me. ♥

Heyyo! I'm such a loser because I haven't posted a thing in August. It's the fasting month people! Other than that, what's new? My notebook is not halved. I'm trying to adapt to it. Well, I really want to fix it but I don't have the heart to use Ayah's money anymore. Hmm. Well, life's not that great. It's pretty awesome at one moment. And at another, it's just like suckish kind of moments. I think people are avoiding me. Or I have it all played in my head. I'm such a bad friend. Really, I'm not kidding. I feel guilty but I never do a thing. Sigh, I don't know what's wrong with me. I guess I was meant to be a loner. I don't even have a best friend. All I have are friends I could share my secrets and life with but they're already somebody else's best friends. How could I be so cruel to steal their best friends away. It's sad life really. There's no real happiness if your heart ...