I always thought it's over. I won for good. But wait, hold on a minute. So there I stood. You came back to ignore me once again. I was crushed as I walked through the rain. Never would I thought this could happen again. I was wrong for it took place everytime I gain. I almost won but there you are again. I hate you! Today's training was a slack. It's one day before FAC and it was only focussed on the competing team. As usual, I was a casualty. Today my partner was none other than my YOUNG SENIOR . Also known as HAHA or better known as SiYing. We were under CK. So I was a sprinter and I dislocated my right knee. SiYing got heat exhaustion. First team was Aisyah's. I let them straighten my leg as I didn't know. The next team was Amelia's. JieTing kept screaming "MA`AM, THE PAIN IS INEVITABLE!" So I let her straighten my leg too. Then it was Christine's and they didn't force to straighten my leg. Good, because I would have to scream "OUCH OUC
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Yay, WanYi helped me to visualize our attire. &Will be going shopping with Ami and Fai on 4rd June . Jazz members care to follow? Hahah, at least we'll get more help in choosing. Oh, and great news. Hope it stays for a long time. I just realized something yesterday. &YAY me! Lols. Alright, now to a sad part. Hakim's mother passed away yesterday. It's almost unbelievable. She was a great person. I feel so sorry for Hakim and his brother. They were so close. I see them everywhere together. &now she's gone. Inalillahiwailaihirajiun Rest in peace. Another quite sad part, there will be a theory home nursing test tomorrow! Hope I can do it and will be able to re-test for practical. I'm so not getting my certificate this year. Finally, class outing will be on YF's birthday. If it do take place. I don't know, people seemed to be busy. Especially bandies and dancers. Not enough with CCA, CF is coming up. Have to work triply hard this June. Best of lucks t
Two days without a post. Hahah. So unlike me? Right? Well, I still have them in my head. Good memories, lols. On Tuesday, went to school with Ami. Hahah, even though it's school holidays, we still meet in the bus. Fate? Hahah. We had English Oral. Did a few admin stuff. Like surrender our handphones, Check for attendance, and staying in the holding room. Sat with YF. He did a few tests with Ami, while fai and me just practiced on our own. Then around, I don't know what time, we were asked to wait for our turn. Sat and people were going ... to the picture given. I don't even know what traditional game is that. I just said hop-skotch(?) Oh yeah, my examiner was MS FAZLIN! -drop deadddddd- So how should I say this? I don't know, I think I did alright. My marks maybe low. She scared me and I'm so freaked out right now? I answered the question but she said I didn't. *Don't tell me I'm going to flunk it!* After the third time, she either understood it or just
{/EDIT} Today had been a fun day with Kakak. We went shopping and since she had her card, she used nets for most. Hahah. &that lady is so nice can? &I finally spent quality time with Kakak. We had a few laugh out loud session. My speech has done nothing right? Hahahs, nobody have understand it. They are still in the 'emo' mood. Cheer up world! Alright, you don't have to. Even me, the speaker, is in the 'emo' mood now. Since i heard this song and all. I'm trying to not to. Hahahahaha, I was left by them. They didn't wait for me. How sad. I skipped with YiLing today, since we were both down. End my post here, on a happy note. THERE'S ORAL TOMORROW! Happy enough?
The weather seems so random lately. Like one minute, it's really hot. Another minute, it's raining, windy and hot. Another minute, it's raining and hot. Another minute, it's raining. Now, it's raining heavily. I don't know what's happening. Had Madrasah just now. Only a few came, it was so quiet. Hanisah was getting so sleepy that she took my hand to sleep on. Hahah, I did whatever she wanted me to. Like lending my shoulder for her to lie on, and letting her rest on my hand. Sweet right? Hahah, self praise only.. Then I went blog-hopping. Almost every blog was going in depressed mood. )): What happened to the world? Is the hot weather to be blame? Is the stress of the holiday to be blame? Is the life to be blame? Or maybe it's just us? I've never appreciated my life. I'm always sad or angry at my life. I seldom say thanks, or apologise for my mistakes. That is really ignorant of me, I apologise a million times. Yesterday, somebody made me realise
After midnight post because of that weird dream I just had. Yeah, I've just woke up. Lols. So there's 2 scenes to this story and it made the whole story. What the ___ am I talking?! Hahah. Anyway, so here goes. If you don't understand, ermm, it's a dream. Weird as usual. We(FAMILY) were have this sort of a party in my parents' room. I forgot what party was it but there were foods served. I remembered that everyone was rushing for the sweet & sour fish. While I kept myself away and stayed in the computer room. After that, I went back to my parents' room to eat. Only left with veges. So I didn't eat. Then I saw Aniyah with KakSuria, sitting down. Then I brought Aniyah to somewhere near, with Kak Suria. Guess what? Somewhere near was actually a school. Non of that I know of, probably HIHS. Chatted with KakSuria about Aniyah and then they were gone. Then I saw Shereen(KSS) and Sabrina. We talked(?) or something and I saw ST running. Suddenly, he was in track
2nd post and Mak is angry. I know why and I feel guilty. You see, I spent all day long surfing the net. The only time I'm not surfing the net, is when the connection is down or I'm watching the telly. That's rare anyway. Plus, I've realised that I have yet to talk to Mak or Kakak without a fight after that. Rather, me shouting. Not a fight. It's my fault, I can't control my temper. That's why I spent my time with computer or telly or just sleep. How boring. I always take my time to go home. I always wish activities after school with friends could be longer. I always feel better with friends. I always come home early and sleep or surf the net. I'm rebellious and now I'm lonely. Hahah, I feel like crying. I know why I feel like crying. I feel like crying because I was neglected. I feel like crying because I'm not close with my family anymore. I feel like crying because I'm starting to hate myself. I feel like crying because I've regretted d
Updated the songs! There are 15 songs now instead of 2 :D FALL FOR YOU by Secondhand Serenade It's still stays, yeahh. ALWAYS BE MY BABY This is by DAVID COOK! ONE STEP AT A TIME by Jordin Sparks Just heard this yesterday. Lols. LET ME GO by 3 Doors Down TREAT ME RIGHT AYAT-AYAT CINTA SHE'S LIKE A STAR ELEVATOR A song to dance to or something. MAHA KARYA CINTA YOUR CALL Another Secondhand Serenade's. A bit slow though. TAKE A BOW This is by Rihanna. Random. BETTER IN TIME SEMBUNYI Another Malay song so you may skip. JANJIKU PADAMU Taufik Batisah(((: SAY IT AGAIN Alright, just some random post. Urghs, have to study SJ. I don't want but I need to pass for the badge D:
Hello! Today is so called ' LAST DAY OF SEMESTER 1 ' Yeah, but we still need to visit the school during the holidays. YAY FOR JAZZ(((: So Ayah and Pakcik took me to school today. MPV :D Ayah's family going to Melacca to settle some stuffs. So yeah, I missed my bus anyway. I could see Ami from the car window. Lols. It was so cool alright. I felt so honoured(: Then walked to school, reached at 6.50am. I was early! Hahah. Waited for Ami, slacked with Nurul and Halima. Usual morning stuff, toilet and chatted with Rabasyinira. &yadayadayada... Atq came late so she sat at the back ): Then Farah went to ceramah . Reading session, did star instead. Back to class for English. Lots of points and tips for oral. Scary! I think I want MsNat again. Although she gave me a low mark, but oh well. After that was our slack time. Straws and straws and straws. Ami, Nurul and I disturbed Shirin. Hahah. Played taitee , however that's spelled. Recess was normal. I bought a drink and I hate
TODAY WAS GREATTTTT! Only that Nurul was absent ): Oh, what she missed. School was as per normal. I took the later bus, without Ami D: Only one great thing that got me smiling. Hahah, I walked behind IZMMMMMMM @ 7.12am! He seriously looks like Idris from the back lahh. Back view was so much better. No offence eh. Then assembly, went for SJAB meeting. There was a BEE in the SJ room. I mean the real one. Assembled back. Took the PINK bus. AMI GOT A NEW PHONE! Jealous much, yeah. Then we listened to songs after much waiting. Hahah. &I opened the bag of chips too late :X First I was going " WAHHHHH! " I've never been there before so jakun a bit can? Had talks by Chris Chua and Nick Tan . About impressions and manners. Most made us laugh. I mean, they were hilarious! After that was our free 4-course meal! That's the part Nurul missed. Quite yummy and I was full. &I clumsily spilled some milk on the table. It wasn't my fault anyway, I was just trying to pou
Ami and Jnh was absent today. Huuuuhs. I was quite surprised and missing them. Today was a total slack as usual. Free periods and only Maths. Which was when I slept because she was going through Paper 1. Nak kena sepak budak ni! Hehehs. Oh yeah, I was fasting today. It was so hot and had to bear with it. Stomach growled a few times. In the end, I slept once home. & BREAK FAST! What else to say? Other than Nisa's hardworking attitude, people taking straws from me without permission, Never put a packet of straws on the table because they will just come up and take and when you asked, they'll think for fun is nothing. Atq and her pondan talk make me euwws, Nurul was quiet for today, Mr Tan made girls melt, The class was really noisy with songs and guitars, Ms Thng's class was too dry. Yeah, that's about it. Boring much? Then after lunch, had that KOTO test. Failed the first test. Passed the second test(((: It was the same test and we were given time to study after the
Me: Can you go out with me tomorrow? Her: No, I'm going out with _____. Me: Ohk. ): I'M LEAVING! NEVER TO COME BACK AGAIN! I guess she found somebody else who makes her happier. Haizz. Know what? I keep singing this song out loud. I sound awful, I know. Who cares? I'm trying to prevent any tears. Nobody tag about this alright! I'M CHEERED UP! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! GET IT? I'M FINE ALREADYYYY! SERIOUSLY! Oh my! I still have to study for the KOTO test tomorrow. GOSH! Let's see: 200508 - Koto Test. 210508 - Workshop. 240508 - KOTO EXAM! 250508 - Madrasah. 260508 - Maths I.P, School Holiday! 270508 - ENGLISH ORAL! 280508 - Malay Heritage Trip. 290508 - Maths I.P, Jazz, Farah's Birthday. 010608 - Madrasah/FAC 020608 - Shakespeare Thing. 080608 - Madrasah. 130608 - Band Concert. 160608 - Shereen's Birthday! 170608 - ShiJie's Birthday. 180608 - YingFu's Birthday. 190608 - Jazz. 200608 - Jazz, YK's Birthday. 230608 - Back To School! 240
Sahra is so crazy. Mind of a child. &just now, we got so high that we kept laughing. All because of that dude who came down, without a shirt, hair all wrapped/full of shampoo and jeans. Lols! We just laughed in front of that guy. So bad but who cares? &I want my pencil case back! I miss it, all the memories inside. Especially after seeing a picture in Jnh's blog. Gosh! Such a short post :D
I'm some kind of frustrated now. I think I'll vent my anger here, so don't read alright? I mean it, DON'T READ! Ermmm, well, if you don't want to. I blog this from the bottom of my heart. If I ever hurt you, sorry eh. I'm just really frustrated right now. URGHSSSSSSSS! 3 things made me frustrated! #1. HIM! I don't mean him as in him but him as in HIM! Yes, I'm sure most know HIM! Urghs! Stop being such an ass can? First you did things to hurt other. Who do you think you are? Some kind of highly person? You hurt others and think you can get her easily? Puh-lease! Second, can you suggest and let me decide first? &I'm supposed to be in-charge. Stop taking my position, please? I'm the one in-charge, that means that! Can't you even get that in your head?! Yes, I'm being an ego ass with these things. Get that in your head! #2. HER! Yes, her! She can just make me cry easily. From the day I knew how to think till now! She will never stop bein
History was surveying time. "My teacher smiles ..." Got the class laughing because it's hard to see MsFazlin smile. Laughing is not counted, I think. Then we watched the Sec3's inter-class games during P.E. 3G versus 3I. Some things just made me laugh. Like .... &we played childhood games till we were asked to assemble at the Foyer. Bus ride was such a bore. We were all hungry and thanks to Fizah and Fai for the foods. People sent songs and all. Atq was so funny, she was so protective of her phone. Lols. We finally reached around one hour later. Viewed a few gallery first. The WAYANG gallery was great! I meant the scary Malay movies. Then we entered the Singapore Museum Gallery. Uhuh. It was alright. They weren't enough time so couldn't enjoy the trip that much. Just there's this part where it was dark and I was leading. Aishah was right behind me and we were like afraid to go in. Reason was because it was DARK and EERIE! We still went in anyway and so
Why do we get hurt so much? Something random. I feel like crying. It's that period when everybody's down. I mean, I'm happy but those people surrounding me are sad. Am I supposed to feel how I am supposed to feel? I don't even know what I'm supposed to feel. Do you even get it? Basically, today had a performance and talk. Recess with the upper sec. Such a moment of dismal. I wouldn't want to talk about it. Then slacked. Got our results; I'm elated with mine. Of course most were not. Then things happened. Dearrrr _____, don't be discouraged alright? Pull yourself together and work harder for PPR and EOY. Lots have been going on, you just have to be strong. It's that time where things just come tumbling down. You just have to stay as strong as you are now. Or even stronger and believe in yourself. Always remember Almighty Him and things will be fine again. That is for 2 person in particular. Plus those who are feeling moody because of your results. Aft
I got this flu and worse, my nose hurts when I touch it. I don't know, some sort like having a pimple. Ouch. Today was total slack. Congrats to Ami! First we had Aesthetics talk. So much drama at first. Then we had recess. Heard some things. Oh my, oh kayyyy. After recess, free periods. Listened to the guitars. Thing happened. Hope she'll be fine. DnT, went to the workshop. Listened to some stories. Then slack some more. Why is everybody so sad suddenly? Wanted to sleep but it was end of lesson )): Hahahahah, cepat jalan makcik? Last was free period again. Heard from Farah that MrFoo showed our photos to seniors. I don't care, nobody knows me anyway. :DDD After that, decided to follow JAA to Macs. I was hungry. Saw a few people today. At Macs, we ate(duh!). Yeah, then they came. Hahahah, took 5 minutes in the toilet to do his hair. Kalahkan perempuan. There seemed to be no difference in the end. Lols. Then after that walked to YT with Atq and Jnh. Such crap they talked abou
Hello! Today was alright. We did baking and all. It was great, almost. Anyways, ran early in the morning. I didn't take the bus with Ami and saw her walking in the end. I tried to catch her but she was duper fast! I eventually did in the end. Oh my, wasn't it tiring.. Then assembled. Some chaos and all. Separated into our Maths Trail group. After a few minutes of briefing, we went to our stations. First station was *ermmmm* Questionnaire(?) They gave us 20 questions and we had to guess it. I couldn't see the screen and therefore wasn't that enthusiastic. Some questions were just " what the heck? ". Only managed to solve one question. Actually two but my calculation was just too slow. Hehehs. Then had our recess. What happened during recess? I can't remember much. Oh yeahhhh, Nurul and her craps. Of course. Assembled at the foyer. Headed for Limbang Park after that. Hahah, so paiseh can? I actually skipped and looked foolish! The first one was counting of
Wanted to start this post earlier but got held up with blog-hopping and smses. So what do we have today? I was late for the third time. I could have been early if I wasn't going, "I need to find pencil case!" I think I left it at madrasah yesterday. Oh no! It could be in my bag and I just have to check it again. Alright, I hope so. Then we got our papers. I was happy and disappointed at some subjects. During recess, Shazlin made me laugh. Hahahahah. She slided the coins and and didn't realize the gap between the tables. So all the coins she slided, dropped! Lols. Hmmmm, I even wanted to go to North Pole so much with YiLing. We kept asking the penguin of the Polar Express to wait for us. I think the penguin got pissed off by us that he decided to leave us. I hope he comes back at midnight, I really want to go play with the penguins. Penguins are my latest obsession! They are so cute. Especially the one in the news, where it has a jacket because of the furs. How cute is
She hurts me deep. She could get whatever she wanted. I couldn't. Jealousy works really well on me. Oh my! I still can't get over him. For a gazillion times, I tried to. I just failed at it. How pathetic. He just have a certain spell and it's hard for me. Gosh! She is being so biased. It's freaking obvious that she is being biased. It hurts me real deep. I don't need to slash, her cut is deep. I still love her though, and her too. Because we are family. I miss them. I wonder where have they gone to. I wonder more, where have I gone to? It's not their fault that I'm not talking that much anymore. Why would it ever be their fault? It will always be mine. I miss them. I'm sorry for muting. What is wrong with me? I'm getting so unlike me. I hate to feel like this. Urghs, adding the emotions of the results. I will be such a disaster. People mood will go even lower because of me ):
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! To all mothers especially FATIMAH BINTE MAKALI :D [ She's the one at the end. ] Today was such a blast (the other way around). Madrasah was great. We got front row seats because of punctuality! It was awesome, I'm not kidding. Totally. Hanisah flirted with Uztaz. Then Rina kept disturbing Hanisah because she was so obsessed with A . Lols. You're the reason for my held back tears all along. It's all because of you, you and you! I wonder will my life always be like this? One minute I'm happy, and the other, I feel like hurting. My mind will always question to where no answer is given. Sometimes, what I see is obvious but I'll try to make it oblivious. I'm always hoping things will get better. It doesn't seem to be coming any sooner. Eating ice-cream. Yummmmmy! I MISS EVERYONE! because I've feel like I'm in my own world. I've never get a chance to communicate like before. How sad? &Of course, I've waited for the
Yesterday visited niece in the Raffles Hospital. Alright, her story is really scary. Imagine you feel normal but others see it differently. I mean she is only 10 this year. I feel so sorry for her for I've never been admitted into a hospital before. It must have been really painful and scary. Then I felt so odd. How I wished Ayah took the train with us. I wouldn't have felt so lonely. So I just stuck my ears with rhythms. Today's training was fun! We had a "quiz" at first on RSE. Didn't study and therefore we all asked each other for answers. Hahah. Then after that we had soccer training for next week's competition. It was fun! Relax ah, it's just a game. It's time for fun, not frustration. I got injured at my right side. I was putting my hand akimbo, then CK, who was playing with the boys, kicked the ball so high that it landed DIRECTLY on my right hand, which was akimbo. Amazing isn't it? Yes, I'm prone to accidents like this. Haizz. Aft
If I weren't here, I would have gone to Zombie's house with them and watch the band. Since Mak won't allow me to go, here I am stuck with blogging. Woah! Anyway, yesterday's kenduri was funnn! I kept laughing with cousins. &also finished a whole packet of straws. Haizz, I'm so bored now. I've realised I had so many photos, not yet uploaded. So urmm, I'm doing it now. Aniyah's Birthday Video, The Breeks and Gathering at Gombak. Done, finally. U and A, have you forgotten? &I though nothing could pull you apart..